polarpanda

give me a job!

2011-07-07T03:49:00.003+08:00

I've been back for ages now and yet I am still jobless!
No one wants me. Period.
Why? I ask myself too. Why?!

All I ask for is a chance to prove to you my capabilities.
That I am that person you want.
All I need is a chance.....

Honestly.
I know I can't do sales for nuts.
I know I am definitely excited by the mere thought of a research project.
I know I love people, travelling, teamwork, presentation, etc.!
I am a workaholic, good is never good enough when I am responsible for a task.
I need a job.
Not only because I need the income.
But because I want to be the staff that surprises you with what I can give.
I am always proud of the company I join, and I need the company to be proud of me too!

It's really late now and before I ramble off track,
I am looking for a clinical research position. OR drug research is fun too.
Please jus try me out.
Be it a Singapore or British job.
Like I say. I love travelling, flying, moving.
Even if it's for work. It's joy to me.

A little something to bring on a new beginning to blogging

2011-06-10T02:35:00.003+08:00

The JapanFever is slowly evolving into KoreaFever...

I think I've got it too...cant get enough of this!

ok. this is scary...22 followers?! since when do I get followers on my blog!???

lmao~ thanks guys~

and peeps who left comments!

Gosh~!!! I am so sorry I only saw them today!

What have I been doing?!

(dont tell me fb....nope thats not exactly it lols~)

Quote2: Meself

2010-01-29T19:46:00.000+08:00

greatness is knowing that i'll be somewhere in your thoughts today
-SN Ang-

Quote1: Mark Twain

2010-01-19T22:47:00.003+08:00

Twenty years from now
you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do
than by the ones you did do.

So throw off the bowlines.
Sail away from the safe harbor.
Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover.
~ Mark Twain ~

Snowy sleepless nights

2010-01-06T11:20:00.004+08:00

Ive called myself polarpanda for ages now.
an organism that tries desperately to connect itself with snow and wintery weathers.

now that im finally in UK, and its darn cold. its snowing.
small snow showers, heavy big snowflakes blizzard, gentle falling of snow on the nose etc etc...
Ive even learnt that a hot cup of tea and a good book beside a window full of falling snow can be a really sinful act of relaxation, comparable to enjoying good chocolate and mocha on a lazy afternoon.

I cant sleep. Just like when i was back at home.
Bad habit.
Im trying to concentrate and attack my dissertation with as much power in can infuse it with.
I want to do well, like i always do, dream, tried too.
But the snow is just too much for this head.
its hypnotic watching the snow.
the cold always makes me shiver from the bottom of my spine up.
and forever, i would shiver and chatter like how they describe it in children's books.
today? its 3am going 4.
im in my room beside the already cooled radiator and the window which is standing brave against the cold knifing its way through to me.
Im typing away. verbal diarrhea.
drinking tea, hugging my fav pillow.
listening to Misty by Kenny G.

it all began with the itchy fingers and tired eyes diverting attention from dissertation onto msn.
and falling on the one love that DNA had stubbornly refused to remove its liking tagged to him.
so began the dramatic waltz of tease and taunt.
words flow, sentences form and the scroll bar began to shrink like a door opening to allow memories to flow out yet again.
ah... The Stylistics are singing Can't Give You Anything.
yes indeed... cant give me anything.
but mere satisfaction to the eager desperado clinging onto whatever imaginary romance it can squeeze from these words which are words of play from two bored strangers trying for some fun.

and so its time again for Goodbye Days - YUI.

自私 by Cherry Tsui

2010-01-04T00:07:00.001+08:00

自私 by Cherry Tsui

Friday, 25 December 2009 at 19:25

自私
令一些人想得太簡單太完美
覺得全世界都會成就他想要的
認為人人會為他
但自己卻丁點兒都不會為一下別人

自私
令一些人都覺得自己很完美
有問題的是身邊的人
全世界都不正常
全世界都應該跟自己的做法去做

人類都是自私的
人類天生就是自私

改不了

因此別說人自私

因為
你都很自私

2009-12-07T23:29:00.001+08:00

and the vampire said to the doctor.... im allergic to blood.....

confidence growth

2009-11-10T19:31:00.003+08:00

maybe its the culture and attitude difference, maybe its just me in a new environment.

somehow, I feel that I am a more confident person now.
confidence in terms of personality. not the fake fronts which I always put up when faced with a presentation, confrontation or even for performances.

I always have this thing about how I look and my figure.
like DUR! I am like flabby and seriously not a looker totally~ and its somewhat funny that in sg, people like me arent granted the right to dress up and try to be pretty. u would just get so much eye rolling and coaxing to dress down and get back into the background!
but over here, irregardless of how u are shaped or looks like, it is ok to dress up in whatever u feel like and wants to.
in fact they dont see why u cant dress up at all!

vainity aside, theres the confidence as a person.
over here i am asked to SPEAK UP! they say i speak too softly cos i lack the confidence in myself and that i am capable and just as good as anyone else here.
seriously, i realise that a long time ago, but people just ignore me even if i start to shout in sg.
here, they actually ask u to have your say. its like when u try to get into a conversation, and u cant really get into it, they would come back and ask you what was it u wanted to say and they dont take 'nothing' as an excuse to skip.

even in choir, honey drums, canoe, scuba, H2O polo etc.... I am not singled out cos if how i look. in fact, they treat me like everyone else. no exceptions. U have to swim as hard and as fast...unfit is not an excuse~
everyone gets a chance at things. they dont say sorry, u too big cant find something for u. its more of hmm... lets get a bigger one for you, cos u HAVE to try it out!!!
in sg, it would be like, sorry we cant help you.

but then again, they dont take rubbish for weakness. unless u really cant do it and theyve seen ur effort, they will push you and get the response they need. so not time for lack of confidence and seriously, the confidence overflow of people here in themselves just fills you and takes over~

i think im gonna like it here for awhile~ so long im still a student and enjoying campus life~

scientific blabbing

2009-11-05T03:45:00.004+08:00

ive started, okay it a little too late to say start, on my dissertation paper
its all about endometriosis and I almost know too well the effects of this mysterious condition on women.
ive seem really strong and cheerful ladies reduce themselves to tears during checkups because of the discomfort and pain that it brings...and the countless ladies out there who have monthly drastic pain that warrants a MC all probably have some form of endometriosis.
the only problem: endometriosis diagnosis for sure is via laparoscopy which is a day surgery.....:(
so most docs prefer to treat symptoms and ignore unless it gives problems like infertility or cysts since it is benign.
okay maybe i should put it the other way. patients prefer less invasive measures for minor stuffs that isnt life threatening. ah thats better.
and this simple yet mostly unknown condition is driving me nuts now.....!? tsk tsk

anyways... i am hooked on this book called "Bad Science" by Ben Goldacre.
interesting how common sensical stuffs that I have been rambling on at home is all in this book, and wait~ theres more!!! so ive been wise to stay clear of all those rubbish and save my money on other enjoyments~ ha!
although i do believe in TCM, and other stuffs not from the traditional 'Western' medicine area, there are certain hocus pocus still all out there waiting to catch its prey and it would seriously do u well to use some brain before jumping into anything~ Yeah u feel good....have u heard of placebo effect?? tsk

oh... not forgetting that ive got a wiki on Post natal syndrome thats really bugging me plus something interesting Tourette Syndrome for presentation~ ha... thats gonna be fun.
but DAMN 2/3 are O&G related~ I just love my job~ ha!!!

first entry from UK (a very belated entry)

2009-11-02T23:37:00.003+08:00

its been a roller coster ride since i arrived barely more than 1 month ago on 20sept2009.

I reached Bradford without my baggage and was stranded in a place where i didnt know where to get food and even more so, the shops were closed on sunday...

now that i am sorta settled down, i am enjoying my first ice-cream of B&J's Phish Food icecream in the midst of trying very hard to concentrate and have a go at the dissertation... :(

I am still having a hard time trying to call KLM for the documents which i needed desperately to claim my insurace! wah biang..... really sianded....

and of course alot has happened during this mere few days as compared to the many to come.
ive already visited 5 places, i think, so far.
ive gone through and got myself into an auditioned choir Bradford Singers and I am also singing with Bradford Chorale.
i may be singing with the Jazz Band and probably do a gig with the Honey Drums~ haha
ive just had my first performance at St Georges Halls for Rememberance Festival yesterday, I had my first Halloween Party too~
ive had 2 meals of treat from my friends and I had done a little party plus thankgiving with a flatemate of mine for almost 20 guests!
ive finally swam in the pool here which is 1/4 the size of the usual singapore pools and did that with the water polo team which gave ma an ache throughout the prac, after that in the shower and even more so in the days after that~ i almost couldnt climb outta the pool! haa......

Next destination: Liverpool

to dos: watch TrueLoveNeverDies in London
watch a Finals of the Premier League (Pray i can do it at ManU~)
travel on the EuroStar~
blah blah blah......

and theres always my dissertation nagging at the back of my head and theres 2 group works, a wiki on post-natal syndrome and a presentation on Tourette Syndrome...

tsk tsk.....

Final Lap to Graduation

2009-10-05T04:11:00.005+08:00

Dear Family and Friends....

I always find it difficult to put things in words and I always worry too much with what they would bring...
Its was even harder for me when I first decided to leave Singapore to do my final year and graduate in UK.

First of all, it was the money involved. It wasnt a small sum and trust me, I am not someone who likes to have attention such as money to myself~

and then it felt really selfish knowing that my family felt real uneasy with all that preparation and stuff going on but still having to put them through it all just so things can move on.

and finally when its almost time to leave, I realise that my friends can be affected too~
well.... i didnt expect myself to feel so attached too. and the farewells are really touching.
its the same reason I dont really like to celebrate my birthday cos it feels too over for people to come out and do stuffs for me. ha...

I have to APOLOGISE to my friends. Most of them anyway... :(
I announced my departure too late and I simply cannot find time for everyone. Cos i know my family needed me the most and I want to be there for them.
And im sorry to alot of you who have to know that Im already in UK from fb or this blog....
T.T sorry.....

Well school's fine so far, except for the fact that I had to survive sunday, monday and tuesday without my baggages.... they were delayed la... sianded....
and its my first time in a damn cold place!!! luckily i had some warm clothing with me on the plane...

the people were nice to me knowing my plight so in a way it was a blessing~
it was really crazy when it came to the choosing modules, meeting my new classmates and well getting to know Bradford and direction and all~
Im still getting used to the cold and well~ consolation's that i finally know how it feels to get blown off ur feet! lol!! yesh the gale here IS that strong!

unfortunately complains of course I have.
maybe this place is really huge~ I had a difficult time contacting the people at the airlines and anywhere else for my baggage matters, I finally received a reply last thursday i believe...
now still waiting for second reply.....

the hostel was ok~ actually i like it cos its centralise and really close to almost everything!
however.... the laundry area still setting up!!! that means more hand washing for me.... aww man!!!!
my room has sucky view as compared to my flatmates from the other side which is absolutely fabulous, i have to pass through 4 doors technically to get to the kitchen or bathroom...and i have to swipe cards just to get there and guess what? they dont have to cos its at their area!!! AND best of all I have to cross a common corridor carrying all my barang barang to the toliet everytime i shower.... sian..... inconvenient la!!! and my area is where the UBar is... its got no privacy and noisy, well sometimes, and well the carpark's there so i guess it can be smelly sometimes from the smoking and fumes. so i keep my windows closed lo....

i want to change room but that empty room is right beside the toliet and probable has restricted view cos its sunk between 2 walls as from my research.... aw shyt la!!!

my only consolation is that this room is located where the sun and moon can shine.. everyone say its great cos where theres sun its cosy in this weather. i guess so... ive set myself up in this room so i guess I could deal with this lo... otherwise i'll ask for a change late next year just for the fun of it la...? lol

and the hostel has got crazy people who like to set off the fire alarm.
its a regulation we clear the room or else kenna fined or even kicked out lo...
its a wonder y they havent catch anyone yet cos its the 5th time in 2 weeks...!
and last night as horrible la... it was so damn cold my knees are knocking at each other, I was shivering like hyopthermic patient and I cannot talk for nuts cos i wa shaking so much.
By the time I got back to the room, I cant fall asleep and my limbs were so numb from the wind and cold of the night....

ok

i gotta leave this for now...
will update soon!! promise!

fb quiz... (part 6)

2009-08-11T15:24:00.002+08:00

Love Zodiac Profile for the zodiac sign Cancer.

If you are Cancer:
You crave for more and more love. You are very emotional and very romantic.
There are no bounds in love for your partner.
You tend to have relationships that do not last for a long time.
You are devoted and a gentle-hearted lover.
You pour your everything in a relationship. Sentiments are very important for you.
You do not go overboard in displaying your romantic feelings but you ensure that the object of your affection knows how much you care for them.

Your kissing style:
Your kisses are sensual and fabulous.

To attract you, the opposite sex must be:
expressive, sensitive, romantic, intimate, etc.

You are more compatible with - Cancer, Capricorn, Scorpio, Pisces
You are less compatible with -Aries, Gemini, Sagittarius

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The Real "True Colors" Quiz : Blue.

Values: Sensitivity Harmony Compassion
Joys: Romance Friendships Affection
Strengths: Nurturer Sincere Creativity
Needs: Understanding Love Affection
Frustrations: Lack of Romance Disharmony Time Limits

At work you have a strong desire to influence others so they may lead more significant lives.
You often work in the arts, communication, education, and helping professions.
You are adept at motivating and interacting with others

In love you seek harmonious relationships.
You are a true romantic and believe in perfect love that lasts forever.
You bring drama, warmth, and empathy to relationships.
You enjoy sysmbols of romance such as flowers, candlelight, and music and cherish the small gestures of love.

In childhood you were extremely imaginative and found it difficult to fit into the structure of school life.
You reacted with great sensitivity to discordance or rejection and sought recognition.
You responded to encouragement

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What Does The Week You Were Born Say About You?
The Week of the Empath

You are hard to figure out, emotionally complex, and have contrasting qualities.
You may strike one person as outgoing, another as retiring, one as positive and expansive, another as negative and depressive, still others as easygoing, others as difficult.
You are a sensitive individual and can easily pick up on the feelings of others.

You are very clever on getting your way and are financially astute.
You can swing from angry outbursts to repression which can often lead to self destruction.
You are capable of withdrawing from the world for months or even years.

You must overcome inflexibility and real or imagined handicaps.
You are a sympathetic, technically proficient, financially astute partner who loves the security of home and can be counted on to keep things in good working order.

Strengths: Financially Astute – Sensitive – Technically Proficient
Weaknesses: Aggressive – Fearful – Needy .

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old times

2009-07-25T01:01:00.002+08:00

it all started with 1 picture from primary6 at camp christine.

and people ive missed for the past 12 years came flooding in to comment in facebook.
my goodness~!!! some of them have changed so much I would NOT recognise them on the streets!
and we are as bad ass as we were 13 years ago~ good thing ehh?!

and so as i was packing up my area this morning, i found my file of all the pictures from ZHSS and NYJC. (hmm.... i wonder where the pics for chongfu has gone.....)
and well, i couldnt resist adding them to the collection.
I was laughing so hard looking through those pictures seeing how much we've all changed in such a short time!
aiya.....i was MUCH thinner.... damn.....

i remember the first time i took a leading position, the natural high on stage with guzheng troupe.
PB in ZHSS that offered me a chance to really crawl outta my shell and really work my arse off, the days in school decorating the building and stuffs, duties, sports day, canteen and bookshop, PB room, detention committee ha...., caligraphy class, etc etc etc.....

NYJC that had its highs and very lows.....
OCIP in Thailand(changmai) and LTCs

i miss those days...

remembering my past

2009-07-12T22:41:00.002+08:00

LOL!!!

the past entries which ive clocked since day 1 was hilarious!
to think that ive been through all those crap, pen all those moments of emotional rush, bitched about life and well everything in between.

ahh~ and of course, the darlinSsss who have read, is reading my blog and has stayed with me for so long. Thank YOu! Its a wonder I havent bored you enough haha~~

Wow, Im such a daring idoit!
I blog about almost anything in the spur of the moment or the sudden urge to blog!
hmm... im not bitchy enough to rope in readers and engage them enough to be a starblogger though... aww....

but~ ha.... its nice to see and remember the past from these entries~
at least I know ive survived and lived a sometimes too colorful life~
PEACE.

p/s: for those that shot me down for defending gays; i still say watever darlin.
for those that hurt me so much in the past, thank you for making me a stronger
person today than yesterday.
for those that didnt believe in me, im glad u didnt cos my life is so great its
a dream and I dont wanna wake up!

for my friends, thank you for being there everytime, catching me when im falling
when im upset but bottled myself up, when i lost myself.
for the memories and everything else~ Im glad i have started this blog because
I have something to read, laugh, smile, and cry for the many days to come :)

Night Festival 2009: The Loop of Fortune

2009-07-11T23:25:00.004+08:00

Night Festival 2009: The Loop of Fortune

By Action Theatre PAN.OPTIKUM (Germany)
Venue: Singapore Management University Campus Green, National Museum of Singapore Stamford Green and Stamford Road
Date: FRI 10 JUL 2009 - SAT 11 JUL 2009 10:30pm – 11:00pm

Making its premiere in Singapore, The Loop of Fortune weaves the audience and the surrounding architecture into the plot of the performance, and uses associative images to tell the story of a man’s happiness and destiny.
Starting from Singapore Management University’s Campus Green, the performance shifts across the street to a large-scale finale in front of the National Museum of Singapore. The Loop of Fortune unfolds through acrobatics, acting, live vocals and seamlessly interwoven firework displays. The audience accompanies the protagonist through various stages of his life, different emotional states – the joyful and naïve feelings of happiness alternate with overconfidence and fear – and finally, the dawn of the awareness that it is neither necessary nor possible to oppose one’s destiny.

(from National Museum of Singapore website)

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It was suppose to be a gathering in honour of my birthday.

Steamboat and fireworks after that.

As with this group of peeps... I always felt left out.

why?

because opinions are usually not sought from me but the girls of the same age.

I am 1 year older....

and if u ask me why i kept my silent?

I've known them for what? 10 years? and my opinions are always NOT important.

so why waste ur breath.

yes i've been disappointed many times.

thats why i say dont organise or plan a celebration of my birthday.

thats why i would rather spend it somewhere else like AYG this year.

true enough. its still the boyfriends and girly stuffs that get in the way.

Damn it. I knew its coming already but I choose to believe yet again.

and Damn it again, Im correct.

Now that its too late to return to the museum again... im am disappointed.

VERY disappointed... with myself too.... I should have made my stand and stood there to watch ALONE. at least ill return happy.

I an proud to say im an arty farty person.

I love opera, orchestra performances and above all, abstract art or modern expression such as the above... I should have listened to my heart....

after 24 years of training myself to keep mum and go with the flow.... its hard to break habit.

and because i love this group of peeps too much, i am hurt even more with the simple fact that they have forgotten that the gathering today is for me. they should have asked for my opinion.....

even after I hinted to the cat, it remained oblivious to them that I wanted to stay... and they had obviously forgotten that today's fireworks were suppose to be for me.....

:-(

fb quiz..(part 5)

2009-07-07T16:53:00.003+08:00

Lovely Lady

You are lovely and caring. You help others and spread out a lot of sympathy. Your life aim maybe is to serve the people. But your weakness is that you forget about yourself, your own needs. All your time is hold back for your friends and family. You are always there for people in trouble. Ready for any emergency. You make a lot of sacrifices just to be a good human. But every woman has her needs, her longings and a destiny. Don't loose yourself in work or curing other people's souls. You will have your own problems in your life. Another problem is that you don't say your opinion when it's right and important to say it. People trample onto your soul if you are always so kind and lovely and helpful. They will play on you. Though you should try to relax more and enjoy your life, you should not loose the gift that was given to you to help others . Not everyone is created this way... You are uniqe and rare!

~~~~~

Ang took the "Which molecule are you?" quiz and the result is Ethanol.

You are Ethanol. You are You are able to perform, so called "hydrogen bonds" with other like minded people. You are social and outgoing, sometimes testing how much Ethanol you are able to consume. You are represented as a "Socialiser"

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Ang took the "How good are you at biology?" quiz and the result is Scientist.

Wow, you know a lot about biology!! You obviously enjoy science and should be a scientist!

~~~~~

Ang took the "What memory type do you have?" quiz and the result is Type A - Secretary Memory.

You have no doubt an excellent memory. Having a Secretary's type of memory means that you're probably a walking organiser / notebook yourself. You remember the big and important things, and wonderfully, the small and minor details as well. It's like you can be trusted and dependable on, cuz I guess you're seldom forgetful, which may lead to troubles. But I worry for your brain, seriously... If you ever felt that your brain is getting too hot a little, I suggest it's time to relax a bit, and just try, try, try your best to stop remembering all the minor stuff! You're the kind of person who looks at the whole picture, and give comments from the important to the little things. It's good so that if you're planning for a event, your team can rest assured that things are well-planned and see through with you around.

School Holiday

2009-06-15T20:28:00.002+08:00

June Holidays.

No Swimming lesson. No income.
Biangs... Life is hard without a stable income already.
okay, although I felt its the right time to siam right before H1N1 hits shores ha....
evil hor?

anyways...
I'm technically jobless.
I should be very free, very poor, very happy.

BUT

I am very busy, very very poor and okay~ happy still.
It was the Zoo, then the Science Centre and a lot more places which i should visit to get some overdue businesses taken care off.
And my darlin guitar still needs some taking care off.
although its cheap and a hand-me-down but still i love it.
Im already low on cash and really i can understand how those people feel when they are outta job and really low on funds..

I have no life what so ever....
although what does it really mean to say 'I Got Life'?
really ???

anyways... there are some things like I realy should lose some weight that i think i could take care off... although im the typical lazy women, thats y im ugly and fat harhar!!!

top agenda to take care of.
clean the kitchen, finish the ceiling's painting, clear my wardrobe, my room, etc etc etc.....
okay, these should take care of my weight too~ ha....

Will You End Up WIth Your Crush?

2009-06-15T12:00:00.001+08:00

Yes! Your Crush!

You probably thought you two would end up together from the start, didn't you? Well usually you don't end up with your crush. But your one of the very few people who do. Congratulations, you two were destinied to be together.

~~~~~

Haiz... ya right... only in my dreams? maybe~ ha!

First Confirmed H1N1 in Singapore

2009-05-27T14:59:00.002+08:00

For details of the 1st case in Singapore
MOH Singapore

ALAMAK!!! WHY?????
bohbian la~ to push ecomony ppl must work hard mah~
these ppl i dont blame lor~ they have no choice la~ ahboh what?
jiah ga gi ar? (eat themselves ar?)

BUT
there are those that i MUST CONDEMN!!!
Parents ar?? U realli need to go gai gai overseas THIS much meh??
not scared u come back kenna H1N1 ar?

U kenna there your problem la~
touch wood kid die u die boohoo den? blame urself lor... who ask u go gai gai now.
is it really necessary leh? dont go can die isit?
if u kenna, please dont come back until u are well la..
i scared ar~ coward if u want to call me that.

but too bad for me.
i have to go out jalan jalan frequently cos i need to earn money.
and i have to travel all over too. only all over Singapore nia.
like SARs time, wah~ wash until hand peel ar~
i kenna nevermind. but i dont bring it HOME!

tsk tsk....

just for fun after all the grim stuffs~
something from MrBrownShow.com

Escape Games

2009-05-22T23:50:00.003+08:00

The Scarlet Room.

Its some of those games that gets u hooked on and u wont let go until u solve the mystery.
OKAY~ it can be boring and frustrating when u cant solve the stuffs sometimes too har...

so i solved the 2 mysterie
okay its very very challenging.
so if u kenna stuck, jalan jalan first den come back.
really~! clear ur mind and den attack again.

and if u kenna stuck, ask me la. har~~~

more facebook quizes (Part4)

2009-05-17T21:02:00.005+08:00

Love Personality Test

Long Term Lover
Are you the perfect girl or what? Maybe you're a little shy or lack the dazzling appeal of the Alpha Woman, but when boys get to know you they'll discover the gold deep down. Your love personality is the most likely to find true love and romance, and when you're a little older you'll be much in demand because men will want to hang on to you. Expect a long-term marriage with an adoring husband. Did I mention that you're a great mate too? And an old-round fabulous person to know.

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What is your kiss color?

Your Kiss is Black
Your kisses are amazing. You put a lot of effort into your kissing technique.
You are a perfectionist, and you never leave any kissing detail to chance.
When you're kissing, you like to be in charge. You don't enjoy someone else taking the lead.
You know you're the best kisser. In fact, you're often disappointed by how other people kiss.

Kissing Type: Thoughtful

People See Your Kisses as: Amazingly unreal

You Kiss Best With: A Pink Kisser

Stay away from: A Green Kisser

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Are You Stylish?

You Are Stylish
You look good, but you aren't trendy or over the top about it.
There's a good chance you know what works for you. You have an established look.
You know how to dress well, but you may have trouble breaking out of your comfort zone. Try a new color or new accessory. Staying stylish is about trying new things and taking risks.

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What Type of Person are You?

You are a Hard Worker
Your ambition and your work ethic is highly respectable to all around you. You focus on your job and you get the job done. You are often a perfectionist, with a taste in success, and often find abundance in wealth and labor. People all around are dependent upon you, and shower you in their respect.
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What stereotype do you fit the best in?

Gangster..
Congrats dude your straight up g theres not much to describe you except for your wicked taste in clothes accesories and music..

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What sort of Gangster are you?

Quiet Gangster.
You are a humble gangster but humble enough to protect yourself. You avoid most troubles or problems (fights) but if your in a fight that you can't avoid, you will fight to the end..

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What Type of Personality do You Have?

Crazy
You can get EXTREMELY hyper, you make people laugh easily, you have a great sence of humour.

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Where would the Sorting Hat place you

Gryffindor!
Named after Godric Gryffindor, you value courage, nerve and chivalry. You are very daring. Its mascot is the lion, and its colours are scarlet and gold. Gryffindor corresponds roughly to the element of fire.

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Which Tim Burton Character Are You?

Sweeney Todd.
You have had something happen in your past which makes you constantly longing for revenge or justice. You are wise and have your own specific talent, which you may use in more ways then one. You love adventure and are known to take risks, yet you are very careful and prepared for what happens. Congratulations! You are Sweeney Todd!.

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How will you die?

You will die while saving someone's life.
The most noble of all deaths. Your rewards will be great in the next life. You are most definitely a humanitarian. If not currently, you will be. To give one's life is a precious moment that will be remembered by friends and family for many decades.

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oops... (My tee-debut!)

2009-05-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

Dear Friends,

Please show a little love by voting for my tee please??
just click to go in, register and well~ vote to print my tee~!!

thank u lots lots lots~~
Lotsa Lurve~~ Muacks!

bad toe week

2009-05-12T15:50:00.006+08:00

its has been tough adapting to life as a wasted being.
theres absolutely nothing i could or feel like doing. couch potato even seemed really frustrating sometimes.

my worse fear.
good for nothing.
and my senses dull already!
biangs!

can u imagine...
i hurt my fourth toe on the left foot last monday and it started to bleed from under.
and yesterday, i hurt the fourth toe on the right foot and it cracked from the middle sideways and bled.
biangs eh! both pain like siao and the accident happened at HOME.
of all places, i shouldnt be so blur especially at home lor~!!

pain pain pain. even while sleeping, the blanket pressing on the toe would hurt lar~ how to sleep well... sians....
im evolving into a true blue 宅女.

VESAK 2009

2009-05-09T15:19:00.005+08:00

Dharma
From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

The term dharma (Sanskrit: dhárma, Pāḷi dhamma), is an Indian spiritual and religious term, that means one's righteous duty or any virtuous path in the common sense of the term. In Indian languages it contextually implies one's religion. Throughout Indian philosophy, Dharma is presented as a central concept that is used in order to explain the "higher truth" or ultimate reality of the universe.

The word dharma literally translates as that which upholds or supports, and is generally translated into English as law. The word "dharma" can also be translated as "the teachings of the Buddha".

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Happy Vesak Everyone.

okay religious outrage aside...
i am glad today's a holiday, and im glad i had a class this morning with the kids.

besides that...? okay Straits Times special Vesak Day Report. what else?
ive been really lost for a long while.
i absolutely dont appreciate the sing-along sessions, bonding sessions, volunteer for the temple, and the hostility and office politics at all those events.

ive discussed this with my ma many many times already.
the old use to say 'niam keng good for you. the more you clock the better for you'.
not that i dont see that they mean well. but i just agree with the all u have to do is 'niam keng'.
its like why i dont like the idea of... okay lets not go there...
my ma agreed with me. its the many facets of buddhism. something for the vast variety of people out there.
the less literate would appreciate the simplicity of 'niam keng' and be good.
some may find the volunteering a more appreciable side to so called relief the burden of their 'wrong-doings'.
and for me; im the question, answer, understand, appreciate.
i like to put it as im the 'chim' seeker.

ive always been vexed seeing the young seek excitement, thrill, ? fashionable, friendship in a religion. sometimes almost as aimless as a karchua without its head.
(hey! i AM a karchua to many of my friends okay~)
its aimless because they dont question, dont understand. just believe.
okay believe sometimes is a strong weapon of choice, especially coupled with hope.
but what comes after that? emptiness?
but they are so into it~ they spread the joy all around.

I dont see alot of these related to buddhism though...
and some of the channels that ive had were closing. more like im closing the doors to these alternatives.
i dont know why. too commercial? too cheeky? too demanding? too fake?
trust me. it can be when money makes THIS world turn round.

so i may have stumbled and continued my journey starting with these 2 links that's in Straits Times today. lets give it some time to run.

i dont know if its THE type for me as yet~
but hey! its VESAK. lets just smile and relish this day.

Happy Vesak Everyone~!

Beautifully Imperfect

2009-05-02T23:28:00.001+08:00

A Yasmin Ahmad film, from thinkfamily.sg
i saw this on TVmobile the day I shut the door to the clinic for the last time, i was touched.
It reminded me how imperfections irritating at first became part of our lives, and how we grew to take them for granted. That was when i cant wait to get home for dinner. To try and meet my dad at the lifts and the hear the squeal of my sister, the drone of my brother's video game while my mom sizzles the last dish in the kitchen.

I realise, then, i miss my job...

EepyBird's Sticky Note Experiment

2009-04-28T19:32:00.001+08:00

sitcky NOTES!
i lurve it!
bright cheerful colors~ yesh!

from de guys who brought you the cocacola+menthos saga~

EepyBird's Sticky Note experiment from Eepybird on Vimeo.

H1N1 aka SWINE Flu

2009-04-26T21:15:00.005+08:00

Being the ahNGee thats been interested in these mandane stuffs....
its time that i recover that me thats interested and kaypo in these stuffs~ lol...

i got a confession to make first of all...
i DONT read newspapers nor watch the news...
so... ha..... i always am the last to know~
STUPIDITY right....?

anyways~ my ma was asking me about the H1N1 virus this morning.
including if we could eat pork at all if theres a chance that the pigs may be infected for all we know.

being the smart ass me, i ask her if she made a mistake with H5N1? H1N1 doesnt ring a bell!
ha~ i was so wrong lo~ when she said PIG i realise somethings wrong.
chinese paper. wah~ its been a long while since i read chinese papers. this time i devoured it greedily.

okay i concluded that:
1. It should be okay to eat COOKed pork since heat should do the job, and besides, whats the acid in our tummy for right?
(i was right~! However, it is essential to cook meat properly. A temperature of 70C (158F) would be sure to kill the virus. )

2. H1N1, sounds like an ancient strain...
(i was right again!! HA! it went back to 1918~ ancient right?!)

3. Symptoms.... probably like flu lor~ and shyt... im sneezing away NOW. uhoh...
(H1N1 is the same strain which causes seasonal outbreaks of flu in humans on a regular basis. Symptom of swine flu in humans appear to be similar to those produced by standard, seasonal flu. )

and what made me pretend to be this smart ass now?
the news on TV lah~ the magic box that got us glued all day on the couch rocketing the sales of chips and everything unhealthy.
mexico. phrase 4. temerature checks at the airports....

walau!!! phrase 4.... sustained human to human trasmission...
xiao liao lah...... scary like hell lor~ felt like SARs period again..
man am I glad I finally quit NOW! whew....

okay~ so this H1N1 aka SWINE FLU is like cousins to the H5N1 aka AVIAN FLU.
so these cousins probably share the same surname but are different family lo~
LOL~ synical expression...

so we've got an extension on the H5N1, H5N2 which is known to have infected people.
and H1N1 seemed jealous, jealous enough to want to catch up: The World Health Organization has confirmed that at least some of the cases are a never-before-seen version of the H1N1 strain of influenza type A, it contains genetic material that is typically found in strains of the virus that affect humans, birds and swine.

like all viruses, Flu viruses have the ability to swap genetic components with each other, thats means the new and improved version of H1N1 is a rojak of different versions of the virus.
Rojak in viral terms is bad bad news for us. in more common terms is mutation ar~!
mutation leh~ means new version, stronger, meaner and more deadly usually, unless its stupid or something (usually the failed versions "die out" la~ darwin's law muahahahah......)

so all my darlings out there, please load yourselves with vit C with workouts or something hor~ no more happy hours and late nights if u could help it alright?! build up ur immunity first! its always better to be on the defense than offense lah~ same in medical terms trust me~

BBC Swine Flu Watch
BBC News graphical Representation of the Avian Flu(H5N1)
CDC(US)
CDC Fluview
WHO phase of pandemic alert

dreaming part 2

2009-04-24T00:29:00.002+08:00

this time its not a dream anymore!
WAH!! wish came true. finally!
and its the LAST DAMN TIME that i'll probably be squatting at he's school to cramp before the exams.

we've always stayed near the school of law or near the dance studios, up around the TCC area just by the turn of the road behind or at the crowded area near the OCBC bank. ive been by the gym a couple of times. okay literally at the entrance of the gym, hidden from the world out there... and for some reason, uncle decides to study at the end of the corridor. i almost ditched him for the national library cos this term i was so desperate before the exams. i've got absolutelty NOTHING in my brain to even rattle for the papers. and of all papers its my 'sister's' paper!! biang how can i even allow myself to score a C leh?? and so the dumb queen decides to lose her voice to this sexy voice which we all loved in the sec days~ the hoarse sexy voice~ OOoo.... and then it happened. i thought i was dreaming.

I stared HARD. he looks back awkward with the OS of what'cha lookin at??
it was funny. then i realise i got he's hp number.
LOL and i called as soon as he left my view of sight.
LOL! its him! god i miss that voice, the familarity so subtly foriegn after all these years... thank goodness for facebook for i found u lol.....

but well~ i dont really remember anything after that.
i lost my absolute resolve to study anyway. my brain was soo cooked, so tired and well... i was burning up too...

im well now after it got so bad i couldnt sleep at night cos i was coughing away.. so i decided its time to see my dear friend our friendly GP to get my yearly dose of yucky pills and syrups....eww.... now im sleeping like a baby. cant hear the phone ring, cant hear the surrounding. just plain dreamless sleep that last forever until i wake up.. yup. eat shit sleep. thats about it now.
and i still havent gotten my voice back..... i want to go KTV lei....

asking for love

2009-04-22T15:09:00.002+08:00

how do you ask for love when you dont love in the first place?

sometimes i just dont understand how MCPs work down beneath... you've got what you want. its time to let go. dont expect me to change my perspective and kneel to the absolute disgrace of womenkind because i will absolutely not.

sometimes its easy to forget that people are ultimately human.
flesh and blood with lots of pain and well emotions too...
i've forgotten that the old man is human afterall beyond the fascade of ?polygamy
okay maybe its wife plus mistress.
and lets put the damn excitement of fooling around while tearing your loved ones apart aside. u are human too..

okay so i am sorry that overlooked the fact that you needed love and affection too.
but you pushed us away first! u let the woman loose into our lives and mashed us up so terribly that everytime she drifted past, the wounds tear apart and starts bleeding again.

its been 5 years since my dear granny passed away.
and truthfully, i didnt know the true meaning of 'its too late' until now.
there are so many things i wanted to learn from her. hugs that i would never have again. her perfume, her smile, her signature laughter... HA~ HA~ HA~
i wanted to learn how to cook from her, sit in her ride and go for a spin.
i can still remember how we affectionately tell people "my grandmother on skates".
her smile, her poise, her style and taste are definitely beyond all those 'tai tai' living around her. its like high class desperate housewives versus an artist! LOL

supper at amara hotel. ice-creams, noodles, rice, westerns etc etc etc... so long we are happy. money's not a problem.. yeah money is something that leaves most of ur worries behind. worries, problems, and the blahs that money can solve.

except this. THE WOMAN. ya, in 'french' its DA BITCH.
although im still ehh... relatively new in this world, ive met my share of bitches.
not the regular ones but the mean, horrible and really wholesome ones.
they give you hell for breakfast, crap for tea and lots of rubbish for dinner.
supper? nah~ i'll pass.

yup she gave me expired food since i was a child. no kidding!
maso lots of hampers for herself for god knows what reason since she always keeps them until they are dusty and pass their comsumption date where she'll then bring and WOW share with the gals in the office.
used to called her 手指票 cos everything she say good so long its from you. why? cos its blardee damn free and she can grab as much as she like cos u wont say a thing since she's the woman right? and i need my job!
and theres the 我不知 in cantonese she always use. she cant even send a fax for goodness sakes!so everything she dont know, we the OL complete for her lor...
the list goes on and on and on....
and her hall of fame: she food poisoned me on the first CNY eve dinner. WOW~

and now you want us to accept her?
hello~?! 尸骨未寒 heard of it?
well~ this old man brought her into the house even before she DIED!
needless to say this woman came to the house on the morning when my dear granny passed away. thinking of this still makes my blood boil.
she came hurried, conceal her joy behind lots of crocodile tears.
"im so sorry" she cried, her face dry as desert, her smile she cant hide.
MY GOD! my grandma's still lying on the bed, and the doc hasnt even arrived to pronounce her dead!!! legally, she's still DAMN BLARDEE ALIVE!!

and even before my grandmother's wake done and her body cremated? where's this old man? well resting in the house of this woman. i dont even want to guess what they did together.

my grandmother's body hasnt cooled, the ashes still warm, and this is what U the man of the house did. to your kids, your grandkids.
how blardee fuck do you expect us to respect u anymore?!

u need love. we tried but for hell trust us, we just cannt stand the sight of U and the woman in the same house. we gave u love BUT u pushed us away, trusting only the woman.
HOW FUCKING WELL can this woman take care of you when at the doctor, she's "i dont know, i dont know" to every stupid quesstion that we ask?! even the doctor cannot believe she lives with you!
she gives you soda and biscuits for lunch!! WAH~ fuck man! we give u this for lunch and we'l probably die cos u MCP cannot take not having HOT HOMECOOKED FOOD FOR ANY OF UR BLARDEE MEAL! what the HELL?!

and u expect us to ask u how's your health every damn day?! c'mon la~ if you are not well tell us! we cant be calling you every fucking day just to make sure u feel loved and cared for.

we are not that DAMN FREE to stroke your ego every now and then! we've got our lives and families you know?! u got that woman! leave us alone and go tour round de world la~!! u cant bring that FAT account of yours to hell when u die anyway. so why not treat us and urself to some goodness while u can?? hmm?

you should be glad that thoughts of taking you out for lunch did actually pass thought the minds of us grandkids... but the thought of having that glutton there and having to treat her just plain SUCKS! so its plan aborted everytime.
boh bian....

we used to feel guilty asking JimPo out for meals, having a great time with her. now we are free! cos we dont owe u a living now that the sluts responsible for you!

you know? there are days when naming her slut, bitch, and anything horried seemed appropriate, but we realise its an inslut to them if she were listed and branded with these words. even 'the thing' is an insult to the thing...

i just dont understand. 出的了厅堂进的了厨房。this woman fits NEITHER. she cant cook, and she disgraces us in public. have u had the time of explaining why your grandpa's girlfriend behaves like this and like that and eats like a glutton? or why is she dressed like this for a dinner? yu[ i have and had and probably will still get lots of these questions coming... sigh....

enough of my diarrhoea....
i wanted to say, i could show you more care and concern.
WHEN i see you, and when circumstances really call for the need to.
heck! im not that important in ur list anyway~

as for that woman, dont expect any less from us.
she's still not going to get less from us nor any better treatment or respect.
please la... having dinner on the same table as her is already the LIMIT!

who says i dont care about people? who says i dont care about their feelings?
now im worried how my cousin's gonna take it... she was really upset when she found out about this woman already.... and now to hear this....

WTF really!

2009-04-21T17:00:00.005+08:00

My ahgong's girlfriend is now officially his wife.
what more can i say?

i think i need some time to sort myself out.
im so outraged!!! ARGH!!!!! FUCK

MEN are JERKS. BASTARDS!
if u dun even know how to love ur family U dun know LOVE?!

Moorrre facebook quizes (Part3)

2009-04-21T13:33:00.014+08:00

Your ideal job

Doctor/Nurse.
You are keen on finding a cure, and enjoy saving lives and helping people. When someone is hurt you are first to help out and diagnose the problem, so grab the gloves & get operating!

"wohoo!!!"
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What was your profession in your past life?

Librarian
Pursuit of higher learning is your thing. Finding the truth in books written by those smarter than and expanding on that knowledge so that you too may one day achieve your own greatness. Knowledge is power learn all you can from this life, there is more than enough to keep you busy

"WTH??"

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Which Love Language do you have?

Time and Attention
You are a person of Time and Attention. This means you are most touched when people spend time with you and listen when you talk. You enjoy to do the same for others. Time and attention are a great way of communicating, but when someone else you love doesn't necessarily talk the way you do, it doesn't mean they don't love you. What would be their primary love language? The downside of this love language can be people assume you are lazy because you take your time. Try to find out how hey treat you when they try to show love, and try to speak their love language back to them so they feel loved.

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Hot Heart

You are liked by all.
There isn't a mean bone in your body.
All your friends like you and the ones that are not wish they were.
You are always nice and try to see the best in everyone.

"yeah right.... im just high today after all the antibiotics im taking....."

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When will U die?
31st october , 2008
not much time left!!

"lol.... im already dead!"

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HOW will U die?

Road accident

You will die in a Hit and Run accident on your way back home from the shops. You will suffer from serious head injury but sadly pass away at 2:42am in hospital.

"OMG~ they even got the time ya?! scary cos i always thought i'll die unnatural death..."

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讓你最心痛的事情

稍微損壞的耳環: 耳環代表的是你失蹤的寵物~
讓你心痛的是~等待你回家的寵物

"瞎勒！我又没有养宠物。。。"

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What is your O level score?

Top scorer of your school.
You are intelligent, dilligent and hard working. When you were in Secondary School, you were so outstanding that others felt that they were not very good. You surely manage your time well. If you have enough bonus points, you will be a little confused whether to choose Hwa Chong or Raffles. But overall, you deserve the best education.

"haha... yea right....."
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Which car fite you best?

Mini Cooper
There isn't a place you can't reach. You like your car small but spicy.

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2nd April's FOOL

2009-04-02T23:54:00.006+08:00

and i had to be the fool on 2nd April...
tsktsk....

i didnt want to leave but i know deep down its time to say my farewells....
im leaving my job this saturday... T.T
3 years there and countless moments of joy and despair...LOL!!!
although i felt glad that patients ask me to stay cos they love me too much... harhar!!!
but i have to get my degree no matter what...
thats why i had to leave to concentrate on school....
okay... excuses excuse right....? ahh wattever

and today~ i had to be a fool
Swallowed a HUGE mouth of sour goats milk...ya EWWWW X10000000

haydairies.com.sg

i dont know what made me do that at all?!
it was goat's milk from yesterday which i forgot to drink.
Left it standing at the pantry till this morning..

i MUST BE crazy!!!
i actually took it, open it and took a huge swig from it.
of course i threw the rest of it away
BUT
that 1 mouth has left me with a sore throat.... its like sand paper back there...
i regret....im sorry... :p

so kids, remember~ please PUI anything that tasted wrong instead of swallowing it okay~
LOL.... another milestone in the dumbest moments of my life

reading

2009-03-17T23:30:00.002+08:00

harharhar!!
another exam period akan datang!
shyt la..... i must have lost the damn steam sia....
i dont have the mood to study, to do the essays nor the presentations liao leh....

biang ar.... how sia?!

all i have in mind is how to relac one corner
strum the guitar just to make some noise to fill the silent
keep listening over and over again to jason mraz's Lucky
and what else?? cook for the fun of it and torture my family to finish the dinner after that!
buahahah~
EVIL~~~~

anyways ive picked up an old habit: reading
again yes...
like the advertisement from adidas i think: something about you've cheated on it once or twice but running always takes you back..
its the same with reading lo....
and what more to start wiith a fav author: James Patterson
and ha~ "1st to DIE" from Women's Murder Club

i dont really remember what i read and who the authors are
so for he's name to come up at the library that day
just when i was toying with the idea of reading again~
what can i say? its a good one to start with... next one: second chance

dreaming

2009-01-15T13:29:00.002+08:00

i like dreams.

they are like these little moments which you escaped into a world of your own.
you experience things which may never happen, your most wanted, most feared and sometimes dreams even gives me little dose of surprises.

and this little episode last night was something really special.
LCH. lol someone special but he doesnt know it.
used to call him 'birdman' cos he pisses me off so very often.
im never good enough at anything and well i never really won any spat with him during those years anyway...
until someone wrote something ridiculous on my table that morning.
okay i still find it ridiculous now cos clearly its a prank on me.
but if that prank started from something real and true, i say im really glad.
but damn~ why u never told me sia?!

lol... im thinking of leaving. going somewhere far. like hitting a restart button to start almost everything anew.
and as always, theres the 'would i be missed' thing. its like those morbid questions which i am curious to know. and so i've been thinking of gatherings, meetings with friends and people i missed. Singapore is so darn small but its like people somehow just cant see each other.
ive been to where LCH should be at more than a couple of times. and of these times ive always been at a rather open area. but never meet. damn i dont even know he's there in the first place!

i always have a soft spot for music, get-togethers, fun and laughter.
and this episode was at a little gathering by the pool. food friends and lots of hahas.
and to get to the point, he was there, i dunno y.
he looked like him den (cos he look real different now and i dont really appreciate the new style he's got....oops....) he stood up and sang something familiar, (i lost that song...T.T......) walked round the rectangular table, turned 2 corners and ended up behind me.
for some reason i knew he was coming towards me (its me dream anyway) and i was already hiding my face behind some files ive got with me. i knew i was grinning like Garfield does and well.... he took my hand and sat with me. (thats to damn AA lo!) and before i know it, we are walking in a park or garden with waterfalls, fences with vines, little pathway... (okay flowers dat bloom in de night?! and i know this: huge winds cos its really windy this morning, dats y i can feel the wind....) walking in silent side by side... den the phone ring.....

alamak! my phone ring!!! i wanted to ignore it but.... ha~ still have to come back to real life ma....

anyway... being a fan of romantic events... i am a bit funny when it comes to this.
i think:
walking beside each other in silent
throwing flirts across a packed room while engaging someone else
enjoying the breeze by the sea
giving him absolute freedom, feign blurrness, and knowing that he'll always be back
knowing that he'll remember you, smile when he sees you after years of absence
knowing that i'll remember and think of him

but these never happen... only backstab me nia.
okay very long winded liao...

What my birthday say about me

2009-01-15T12:34:00.002+08:00

Haha~ another trival from facebook's many application to fill the pages~

You have great common sense but usually fail to follow through.

This might happens because you are too busy with your mission and shut yourself from the outside world.

You are clever and profound so there's a slight chance for self-control problems.

Your love progress slowly, and quietly.

You seem to be contented with your unrequited love.

You are a romantic and loyal lover.

okay...

but it seems quite accurate for a few others which i checked on~ LOL!!

跳！jump!

2008-12-25T23:18:00.004+08:00

Singapore on the World Map

2008-12-24T22:00:00.006+08:00

International Friendly Matches.

How did a friendly match became a violent confrontation??
well...
to make things worse, the Singapore Flyer's on international news for breaking down for 6 hours plus.

Wow talk about putting Singapore on the World Map!
Now people from all over know Singapore fans can break into fights with the opposing team just like the others soccer, football blah blah
and whoa we actually have the world's tallest ferris wheel!

and i can tell people finally that we are indeed not in the middle of CHINA.
please people, get your bearings correct. we are surrounded by the SEA, not land.
and we are most definitely a melting pot as much as NY claims themselves to be~!
ha! take that whites! (concept stolen from Twilight)

publicity easily granted.
clever.

now all we have to do is damage control...

twilightthemovie.com/
Twilight is a nice movie.
for girls.
is the romantic, fairytale, imaginary, totally untrue and will never happen event that almost all girls wish for.
the forbidden love, the overwhelming desire for the otherhalf, the selfless love, the jealous stares from girls in school.

it would be cool if i could meet a guy like him.
ha~ den i wouldnt have to worry about reaching work late, ERP, squeezing in the public transport. kekeke!!!! and i would have a cold surface to retreat to in the darn hot weather.
okay although its a little too cold at this time of the year but who cares ya?!
oh ya~! and he would probable be the only man strong enough to carry me~ finally someone i can dance with threading on the poor guy's toes~!!! :p

sorry guys but bring your girlfriend to this movie lar~
she would appreciate the gesture.
remember, the cinema's darn cold this time of year, so what the heck~!
you'll get your benefit la~ huggs and let her imagine herself as the actress and you as the VAMPIRE~

(^.^)
cheers and happy holidays
from the karchua shivering under her windbreaker alone on PH eve...
tsk tsk.....

ohh ohh~!! and gossip....
is this guy justin chon relative of 5566's zax wang??

why do they look so alike leh? at least to me they look like brothers or something...

Seasonal affective disorder (SAD)

2008-11-16T23:49:00.003+08:00

Seasonal affective disorder (SAD) is a form of depression that occurs in relation to the seasons, most commonly beginning in winter.

Causes
Seasonal affective disorder (SAD) is marked by symptoms of depression profound enough to seriously affect work and relationships. The disorder may have its onset in adolescence or early adulthood and, like other forms of depression, occurs more frequently in women than in men. Most people with the "winter blahs" or "cabin fever" do not have SAD.
The cause of SAD is not known, but is thought to be related to numerous factors including body temperature, hormone regulation, and ambient light. A rare form occurs in the summer

Symptoms
Depression with the onset of fall or winter
Lack of energy
Decreased interest in work or significant activities
Increased appetite with weight gain
Carbohydrate cravings
Increased sleep and excessive daytime sleepiness
Social withdrawal
Afternoon slumps with decreased energy and concentration
Slow, sluggish, lethargic movement

Signs and Tests
A psychological evaluation rules out other causes for the symptoms and confirms the diagnosis.

Treatment
As with other types of depression, antidepressant medications and talk therapy can be effective. Light therapy using a special lamp to mimic the spectrum of light from the sun may also be helpful.
Symptoms commonly resolve on their own with the change of seasons.

跷跷板

2008-11-11T17:10:00.004+08:00

Soler @ 新歌 MV - 點解

2008-11-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

okay girls~ let the squealing begin!!
(^.^) haha~~ yup its 龙爷 and their latest groove - 點解

alright. i gotta admit.
i know nuts about canto and frankly... im really clueless most of the time.
but haha.... i dunno why leh.... doesnt stop me from listening to them
maybe naughty ahNgee wants to rock too~ hehhehheh!!!!

daddy's birthday

2008-11-07T00:39:00.004+08:00

this is the period where birthdays happen around me...

dad, aiya wanted to celebrate for him.
no chance, he's into one of those querky temper again...
of all days to choose.... aiya... bo bian...

so instead of the dinner and present, he got only the present lo...
and he never take notice if its presence until yesterday...
better than never la...
now he complain too loose~ LOL good! at least now we know he like the watch for sure~ :p

boss's birthday

2008-10-28T00:18:00.003+08:00

my boss's birthday. scorpio. dinner at SAFRA mt faber.

party of 3 tables, lotsa fun and laughter, karaoke and food.

was seated with aunty alice and her family, shirley(lady boss's hair dresser) and james.

shared and bought this for de man.

lucky S/N Lee and me shared this for that particular sum.

the pure silk bow cost exactly what we put in lo~!! phew....

she's 7 already!!

2008-10-26T21:53:00.001+08:00

shes my sister, and she's 7 yrs old.
please la~ she's no accident la~
honestly, ngeeDi and ahNgee already know the stork's bringing her to us la...

not looking back, my mom's really brave and all...
and my dad, well he's really someone isnt it? (harlow, its the sole bread winner side of him la!)

i can still remember its during my O levels when my mom was expecting my sister.
surely its tough for the whole family.
i can remember the days when we had to chip in and cover housework just so that my mom doesnt have to worry.
and the other gloom that hangs over us was our dear granny's health... i was in and out of hospital during that time cos i felt the duty to be there everytime my mother looks at me with that guilt-strickened eyes that she cant travel all over and help granny, and well i wanted to be there with granny.

she's not exactly young for a pregnant mother, and she's really weak on the heath side too..
and well, it breaks our heart to see her keeping mum about malaise just so that we can continue to enjoy the carefree days.
and my brother he's really something. girlfriend and all and yet he manages to cover my part during the exam periods.

my sister came just before my main papers.
imagine the stress when both of us got calls from dad that mother's in for an emergency caesarean in the evening. all went well and sister was really cooperative.
gave me my nights of sleep before exams, although that's probably my mother cooing her all those nights.

now she's a full blown devil who loves the color RED
and whos gotten the hearts of the men in the house.
even mom cant handle her.
so its moi, the BIG devil's job to control and keep her under control.

so guys out there, dont be fooled!

ehh? lol, this girl doesnt know the danger sitting next to her~keke~!!!

ya~ the loving couple... gross....

dad's treat!! VivoCity.

haha~!! i bought the devil these double scoops at Ben&Jerry's
she wanted brownies but they ran out, so i got her the brownies and this ultimate chocolate or something to replace. (",)

shared these 2 comic books Obelix&Asterix with bro for de devil's birthday present.. although i suspect its my brother who wanted these books in the first place....

lol~ i just gotta put this up. explains our monthly mood swings those men-dont-get-it episodes~ (^^) sorry guys~ been hard on ya huh??

Suicidal Stunt...Stupid guy...

2008-10-10T00:48:00.005+08:00

i'll update later, for now, here's the link.
frankly, i wished he jumped.

heres the story~

It was another ordinary day off for me.

Late mornings, bring sister to school, brunch with mom, shopping after that...same routine (well...almost) until wo go on our way home.
a crowd was gathering at the void deck of a block we are going to bypass.
something yellow was growing bigger and bigger.

then my mom spotted the missing link.
a youngster was seated at the ledge at the 6th floor.

My mom was shocked as that ignorant boy teased the crowd leaning away from the wall.
I on the other hand was furious!

Day in day out, i see people fight the war against cancer for their mere chance to survive yet another mere day.
the almost cruel ritual of their treatment schedule, it sometimes breaks my heart to see them even with almost 3 years of professional polishing from the docs and nurses i worked with. I see them again and again after every treatment, weaker, thinner, balder. I see them fight nausea, weakness in their limbs, the torture mentally and physically. I literally see some of them waste away... while some recover (goodie!).

so why are you still sitting there??

oh ya... i forgot...according to a book i read sometime back, the problem now is probably not simply to jump or not to jump.
its a situation which got out of their hand. the thing on their hand now is not death, its how to survive after survival.
its a fight to see how they can exit this situation and yet save their 'face'. they fear the coward label, the ugly situation of being whisked away by police etc etc....

well the civil defense did eventually pull him back in a rather efficient and well, im impressed~
kudos to them~

Family Dinner at Yan Palace

2008-10-09T21:38:00.005+08:00

It was a public holiday on 1st October 2008 in Singapore.
Not for Children's Day but for Hari Raya Puasa

Well, that means a great time for a family gathering with good food and karaoke~
LOL!! its great to hear my grandfather pick up the mic to sing again almost 3 years after my granny's passing.
and to think that my brother showed he's brotherly side by feeding me with too much of the things i like.

like this braised fish maw... he filled up my plate with nothing else but fish maw ONLY~! harhar!!!

when grandpa was singing, my sister, brother and cousins with their mom(from the left)

grandpa with brother singing 爱拼才会嬴

and finally...my favourite: sister and brother singing 你是我心里的一首歌by王力宏&Selina. CUTE!!

More facebook quiz :p (Part2)

2008-10-05T14:24:00.006+08:00

My Type of Handwriting?
normal and neat

you write normal peminship and its neat to kepp writing like that i think thats the best way to write

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My Dance Moves?

Ang has the moves of a Hip Hop Dancer.
You are a party lover. You have an attitude, in a good way, and are not afraid to show aggression when needed. You don't care what people think, you have your own style.

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What kinda person I'll end up with!?

Youre going to end up with a really cute person :)
You have/had awesome experience with your loved one , and you don't really care about the look , well you probably do want sumone cute ;)

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What kinda date am I?

You are mature but still in the prime of your life. You especially cherish your friends, and you're emotionally ready to try out long-term relationships (if you want!). You are experienced (maybe beyond your years!), and people find that very attractive. Your date better be prepared for scintilating conversations coupled with the occasional wild time out!

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Vroom Vroom!!!

2008-09-28T22:53:00.006+08:00

(ERP ahead, remember to plug in your cashcard.)
(*BEEP* kaninah.....*&$%*r$)

Vroom Vroom~
and there goes my sorrow and grief from the week~!
even though im still sore about the paralympic thingy, well what are they trying to proof now by showing the 5 minute clip of golden girl's winning moments??
anyway, back to Singapore's first F1 race
(as well as the usual first to follow. you know la, the night race, city circuit, under-grand-stand-unique-drivethru, etc etc etc......blah blah blah)

haiya.... some things are really unpredictable...
SingaporeGP Results
Well, Alonso, Congrats to your 20th WIN~!! wohoo!!
Coulthard, Massa, better luck next time, its a really good show u put up today~
Hamilton, Wa~
Nakajima, がんばってね~　良いのraceですね~

featuring my brother, talk and dream rubbish......
GuanHeng Ang, "hello. i very fast. i almost 1st. did you see me!? my team put my spoiler upside down. it turned into a pair of wings on my ass. i flew. i heard the other drivers say "oooooohhh" before i landed on the singapore flyer. nice view. could have been 1st. check me out at www.iflewinsingaporef1race.com"
(disclaimer: not i say one ar~)

kinda regret not getting my hands on the tickets to watch... the sound of the mean macines just make my hair stand~ MMmmm~~ :p
BUT then again, its better when you have the psyched up commentators giving you the deep downs on the game. especially when im a noobie and well, i refuse to learn la hor~
and on TV, you get all the best view while seated comfortable at home with Ben&Jerry's chocolate brownie clad in my baggy-tee and shorts haha~

kudos to the team, the drivers and not forgetting the volunteers, the staffs working OT and the organiser too~ norbel, 辛苦你了~ :)

a zero makes all the difference

2008-09-25T20:13:00.004+08:00

ive been meaning to grumble my piece for a damn long time
toying with the keys to type something mean and nasty about the SSC...
but being me, i let myself get carried away grumbling on the way home to my poor subjects on 153, complain to my mother who just sits there helpless.

the sports arena in Singapore has been overcasted with lots of questions, inappropriate actions and behaviour, debate over many many topics which are far too sensitive for my blog...
im not as competent as Mr Brown or any other local bloggers you see~

anyway back to the darlins. our heroine.
i grumbled..
at first, it was like: why are they not given the same amount of focus as the olympics? why is it that the coverage of the newspaper not as big a spread?? what happen to the hype, the excitement, the importance that lead to the rescheduling of national day rally during olympics??
why is the attitude so different?!

and den it was: why nobody knows? nobody knows that paralympics existed?!!

and finally it was like: WTH?! only SGD$100,000.00?????

hello? are we blind or stupid for goodness sake??
the SILVER girls from table-tennis are like SGD$750,000.00 richer when they won.
our GOLD darlin only got SGD$100,000.00?!
okay so you argue that the SGD$750,000.00 is split between the trio.
so that makes SGD$250,000.00, sorry still SGD$150,000.00 more lor...

if you dont know how much the athletes are awarded. heres the link.
http://www.singaporeathletics.com/singapore-news/rewards-system-for-athletes
and mind you, paralympics isnt listed AT ALL. alamak!!! did they forget, miss out or what?

so allow me to be fair,
an olympic gold medalist will get SGD$1million

SGD$1,000,000.00 - SGD$100,000.00 = SGD$900,000.00

paralympic GOLD medalist get SGD$900,000.00 LESS.
if the number of zeros are making you dizzy...

SGD$100,000.00 = 0.1
SGD$1,000,000.00

paralympic GOLD medalist get ONLY 10% of what the abled athletes get if they win gold at olympics. which paralympics happens to be of the same weightage my dear friends.

dont you think that our paralympic team need the money more for their training, and long-term medical care?? dont you think that this money is really more precious to them then us who are ABLED??

dont you also think and feel that the media attention, the excited squeals and screams would be a rather different but easy way of showing these people that we care.
dont you think that it would be an overwhelming support and encouragement to them?
they are human too you know. they need support to affirm their performance such that they would be spurred to perform better.

hello? already they didnt get the attention which i felt they deserved.
and even worse, they are given DIFFERENTIAL treatment!!
what happen "to to build a democratic societybased on justice and equality"
what happen to the primary school treat everyone equally preaching?

how can a democratic society who can afford to shower SILVER team medalist from the olympics be awarded with SGD$750,000.00 while the GOLD medalist from the paralympics be awarded a miserable SGD$100,000.00?
paralympic is still olympics. so the monnie should be the SAME. isnt it??

i never realise the importance of decimal points and zeros until now...

i applaude NMP Eunice Olsen for her contribution. finally a babe with brains.
private sector, community... so its our fault lar?! U win le lor~!!
already i think its funny that coaches should pay the Usage Permit and yet pay to enter the facility to coach.....
and now the sponsors for both events are different? and the importance different?
and even better, the government doesnt show a sincere and actual effort to embrace our LOCAL players who are winners on the international stage. they are the locals who brought Singapore all the way up. the ultimate glory. the stage where Singapore anthem is played for the world to hear.

so please, rethink your actions. rethink your priority.
not everything is about money. some things are just more precious.
priceless is the word. and they are LOCAL. our pride.

My Personal Profile

2008-09-18T17:10:00.005+08:00

You are a BUILDER / explorer

You are popular, trustworthy and dependable.
People like you for many reasons; but among them you tend to be stable, loyal and caring and you have a wonderful knack for common sense.

You are a guardian.
Your relationships with friends, kin and colleagues are important to you.
So you spend time and energy developing and defending these social networks.

You are a good executive and manager.
People almost instinctively feel you can supervise financial, business and social issues effectively. And because you are sensible and factual, you can.

You work hard. You like schedules.
You are detail oriented. And you tend to respect traditions.
So you bring strength and stability to your social and business environments.

Yet you admire people who are spontaneous and you enjoy new and different ideas and experiences, as long as they are not dangerous.
Respectability and appropriateness are important to you.
And you are capable of deep, solid friendships.

Your Major and Minor Personality Types
Your major personality type = Builder
Your minor personality type = Explorer
E-Explorer - 27%
N-Negotiator - 20%
B-Builder - 29%
D-Director - 24%

How your personality breaks out
Characteristics of all four personality types can be found within each of us, but there is almost always one personality type that is dominant. We call this the major personality type. The Personality Profile also identifies your minor or secondary personality type. You exhibit some aspects of this personality type, though not to the same degree as with your major type.

Builder, 29%: Usually very popular.
Deep attachment to home and family. Calm demeanor and low anxiety.
Often consistent, loyal and protective.

Explorer, 27%: Known for high energy, high creativity and spontaneity.
Seeks novelty, risk and pleasure. Intellectually curious and not easily swayed by opinion.

Negotiator, 20%: Excels at seeing the big picture, long-term planning and consensus building.
An intuitive thinker who is flexible, verbal and socially skilled. Imaginative, empathetic and nurturing.

Director, 24%: Daring, original, direct and inventive. A non-conformist.
Skilled at abstract thinking and short-term planning.
Often assertive and quite competitive. Tough-minded and efficient.

Boom De Ah Dah!

2008-09-18T17:10:00.004+08:00

This advertisement always make me smile~
i hope it made your day too~

i like the mountain
i like the daffodils

i like the fountain
i like the green hills

i like the corner stone
i like to walk alone

doo-wa-pa doo-wa-pa
doo-wa-pa do~

Cherish Puzzle

2008-08-17T00:18:00.004+08:00

time to change the jigsaw puzzle~

Pandemic II

2008-08-14T23:49:00.001+08:00

wa~ something courtesy of my brother~ lol!
enjoy!!

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Tioman Paya Beach

2008-08-10T22:07:00.008+08:00

a "not-so-secret" getaway right after exams.

1. to forget life back here for a while
2. to unleash the ahNgee suppressed for so long
3. to come back to where i started my affair with the sea
4. to lost myself under the sea, hope for a tan
5. the island, me and the sea.

i've got to share this pic.

ya thats right, u didnt see wrong. have a good laugh!

now that im back, peeling and probably a pound heavier...
ah well~ i live to eat anyway~ some pics to satisfy my narcissism.
(^.^)

PoP Quiz Result (Part1)

2008-08-09T21:18:00.004+08:00

here it is again... I am........

SECONDARY TEACHER( YEAR 7 TO 9)
"YOUR A BIT OF A MEANIE, YOU LIKE A CHALLENGE.....THE WAY YOU TEACH IS DIFFERENT! YOU LIKE TO DEAL WITH HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA! "

hmm..... thinking of my 5 to 50 year old student... i dunno..... :s

thats why i'll always be around...

2008-07-08T12:30:00.006+08:00

Im sure some of you might have noticed my weakness for these particular 2 songs.

You are the Sunshine of my life
&
Don't Know Why

Seriously, I cant get enough of these 2 songs and well, im still collecting different versions, presentation of these 2 songs.

so far~ HAHA!!
i have 4 each and im proud of it!
Although i love the original versions, i found i like the bossanova style even more!
the laid back, 'couldnt care less' feel, simple and joyful soul of it all.

no matter what shit happens
they always soothes my soul~
thats why i always feel that as long as i have these songs with me,
i'll survive whatever comes my way.

...thats why i'll always be around...

Innocent Smile

2008-07-06T12:47:00.002+08:00

You have an Innocent Smile
Sweet and naïve, you have a smile that is full of genuine happiness. You have a pure heart and when you smile, you mean it and everyone around you knows you do.
People are attracted to your sweetness and sincerity, and find your company refreshing and enjoyable. With your open and non-judgmental smile and personality, you will often find people confiding in you.

LOL this has come at a really "not-so-right' time~

Sweet Child O' Mine

2008-07-03T23:50:00.004+08:00

Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine

This is like THE song.
low lights, late nights, friends, talk, booze.
life should be like this.

She's got a smile that it seems to me
Reminds me of childhood memories
Where everything was as fresh as the bright blue sky

Now and then when I see her face
She takes me away to that special place
And if I'd stare too long I'd probably break down and cry

Oh~ Sweet child o'mine
Oh~ Sweet love of mine

She's got eyes of the bluest skies
As if they thought of rain
I hate to look into those eyes and see an ounce of pain

Her hair reminds me of a warm safe place
Where as a child I'd hide
And pray for the thunder and the rain to quietly pass me by

Oh~ Sweet child o'mine
Oh~ Sweet love of mine
Oh~ Sweet child o'mine
Oh~ Sweet love of mine

Where do we go
Where do we go now
Where do we go
Sweet child o' mine

ahNgee 2008

2008-07-02T00:01:00.001+08:00

ahNgee must have grown up.
anyway its about time too~ (^.^)

ahNgee's lucky
she still possess the passion and optimism to life
her love for music, friendship, laughter and simple joys of life.
still childish, playful, naughty, naive, blurr, wols, lazy, the list goes on...

she's been through highs and lows ever since a long time ago.
looking back it seems like a real fun roller coaster ride.
the ride ahead seems uncertain, but... ahwell, life goes on doesnt it?

she can still remember the time Mrs Tay told her:
" what is yours will be yours, fight for it, have no regrets.
if it has to go, it will leave you
if its meant to be yours to keep, it will return no matter what."
she'd lost her art piece then and was devastated, no mood for class.
ever since then, she's grown up a little become a little happier.

then Mdm Lau came along:
" Attitude Attitude Attitude! Give Quality not Quantity! Initiative!"
It was the best years of her life!
Finally she felt real, that she's someone. and a useful someone.
she did well in school, never thought it could happen to her.
it was surreal.

Ms Choong came along and gave her some directions
there were too many things to remember. the highlight was
" confidence, courage, concentration "
" live life the way YOU want it, not the way he/she sees it for you"
" its okay to be who you are. Be a little more 'me' and a lot less 'we' "
It was hard, she has too much pride unfortunately.
the two years was horrible, her world crashed like stock during recession.
Ms Choong never gave up, but sucess was never meant to be.

She got her driving licence, NROC registered.
time to start afresh.

Sales team with Vmax, she learnt alot, felt useful again.
O&G-oncology was even better, larning curve was exponential.
she felt old. really worn-out. lost her energy, her drive.
school was okay, but not fantastic.
she can do better. she knows it. she's just too lazy.

Uncle describe her with he's ball theory. he's right.
another Uncle calls her he's brother. he's right too.
another Uncle ask her to find herself an angmo, marry off and stop bothering him.
nah, this uncle's a 'birdman', life's boring without their crap.
another Uncle calls himself her god-brother, keeps assuring her that cupid hasn't missed her.
lol, yea she knows, and she's glad she's got this gorgor to keep.

She didnt have the courage when she had the chance in primary school,
now its just really really close friends. so close he said
" its been a long time since u had the sweaty me hor? come baobao!!"
she hopes he'll continue to dance...
She didnt think it was possible in secondary school,
now she doesn't know where he is.
She thought it was mutual in junior college,
she was dreaming, so reality gave her hugh scars to remember.
She thought it was mutual now, she must be mad! nothing to do with courage.
lol~ shes reading too deep between the lines.
but hey! she finally learnt what it means to be happy for someone(s) else.

she's always been really clueless about herself.
her friends know more about her than herself!!
now, she's trying to know herself more. its really difficult.....
she knows now that she loves
-the beaches
-singing, swimming, singing, swimming, ah eating, ehh driving!
-live performances, music, laughter with a trace (okay maybe a little more) booze
-lotsa company, chitchat, gossip
-dim corners, wooden tables and chairs, and a nice cuppa laced with chocolate (what else?!)
-walking down a lonely lane in a cool, dark, windy night.
-binge on jellies, drink ice water in her pajamas when she needs some sort of comfort from food.
-tries to grab that attention of a certain few uncles when she's lonely and needs company desperately. (always think too much... dont want to piss the gfs off mah..)
-talk non-stop and the volume increases... oops!

theres so much she has on her mind, its gonna be real draggy...
anyway she's got such a short-termed memory span that she cant remember most of the things she has on her mind as she type~ maybe next year she'll remember....... till then

the ultimate prize

2008-06-22T22:05:00.006+08:00

i was out~ amk hub.
i was walking staring and contemplating if i should try the claw vending machine.
i was staring at the plush toys when i felt this soft tug at my jeans.
I stood there in awe as the ultimate prize climbed out of the machine at my feet...

yup~ i dunno whose kid this is but he tried to climb in again~ LOL!!

♫♪♫♫♪♫♫♪♫

2008-06-12T23:50:00.000+08:00

serendipity... in a bag

2008-06-09T23:59:00.001+08:00

what are the chances?
1 seat left on the upper deck of 111
serendipity....

sry guys.... :p

2008-06-05T21:41:00.002+08:00

Dear all....
sorry i've been missing for ages.
it seems that i've been listed as MIA for a darn long period of time already.
far longer than my previous record.

even so, i still lack rest, sleep, time...
on the hours im free, my brain will automatically sleep.
sleep standing, sitting, eating, swimming.

hey~ at least i remember u guys.
its just that even replying emails require a tremendous effort.
i dont know what to say really..
i take comfort in the knowing that many of u are doing better than me.
aww... envy.... (>.<)

i think u gals at slacker's club probably has given up on me already~
paiseh la....
i know i keep saying i'll appear for the next gathering but i cant cos i have lessons on those nights.. boh bian wor...

Then there's my darlins piggy la, kitty la, princess la, and mr fab lol!sry ar~ promise i find time for fish head steamboat soon okay!!

Tatami. mother hen, selin san~ paiseh la~
no leave leh... got leave also must chiong school la..
u guys know rite..... haiz....
biang.... miss subway and pool lunch with ya alot wor....
then tatami, ur mother's chao dong fen.... i miss too wor~!!!
sobz sobz........ how ar??

marie, jon, and the rest~ die die i have to meet u guys before july!
biangz.... go overseas, exams, blah blah...
dunno when the next time will be ar....
jon u 'owe' me my book hor~ haha got excuse to meet le...
lets meet for some booze ok~ abt time too loL!!

Choir... haiz.... i've been like AWOL since dunno when...
i miss singing terribly...
even more so when im soaking wet, freezing my arse off somewhere near, really near u guys.
i HAVE to sing again. i dunno how but I'll BE BACK!!
lye sheng~ sorry for dumping all the load on u and de guys, ben, craig.... paiseh ar~...

james salim, if u r reading this, wow im surprise!!
next time u come over here, make sure u make a pit stop with me ya~!!
its been like what? 10 years?! okay......long long ago

Yukifumi, gomen ne.....
i havent been there for you at all since we graduated....
miss u lots.. miss the good old days.... what happen to us??
seriously? hmm~

Norbel, sry ar~ KTV haha..... sad case.
and hor.. next time u wanna party, tell me earlier la~~
we make sure it happens next time okay~ (^^)

guys... im sorry, really sorry haha~

chain emails

2008-05-19T20:41:00.002+08:00

i like to read my emails if they are fun.
and of all things i choose to disregard chian letters like this one.
but, then again these emails has stuffs to make u giggle once in a while at what it gives u. (besides the 8 years bad luck if u dont send it to 20 ppl, or he will not fall in love with u ever if u dont send it to 40 ppl blah blah...)

okay so this is what this email said about me. answer in RED.
how about you?! :p

1.) What is your favourite colour?
-Red (brave)
-Pink (sweet)
-Yellow (fun)
-Light blue (carefree)

2) What is your favourite hang-out place with your friends?
-Home (simple)
-Shopping mall (crazy, fun)
-Dinner at restaurant (serious)

3) What is your usual dress code?
-Pants and shirt (simple)
-Long flowy dress (graceful, elegant)
-Pajamas? (sloppy)
-Cap, mini running shorts and singlet (atheletic)

4) If you had free time, what would you do?
-Have a picnic with family and relatives (cares, loves family)
-Throw a party with friends (wacky)
-Read a book (shy, hardworking)
-Play with your dolls (childish)

5) Name one of your hobbies
-Photography (creative)
-Studying (clever, mature)
-Dancing (graceful)

6) What is your favourite genre of music?
-Pop (fun)
-Rock (loud, crazy)
-Classical (relaxed, carefree)

7) In your opinion, who is the most important person/people/thing in your life?
-*Him (lovesick)
-Bank account (moneyminded)
-Family (lovable, sweet)

8) If your mother gives you $50, you would...
-Donate it to charity (helpful)
-Demand more, because it's not enough to get you the stuff you want (greedy)
-Give it to the bully because he/she says so (soft)

9) If the guy of your dreams asks you out the day before the exams, you...
-Tell him to study for the exams first. (mature)
-Just go out with him (naughty)
-Run away quickly (shy)

10) What is your favourite time of the day?
-Afternoon (cheerful)
-Morning (healthy)
-Night (dark, emotional)

the busy day dreamer

2008-05-15T13:00:00.000+08:00

I am no upset. I think its PMS.
It sucks to know that only females suffer this phenomenon.
as if its a good thing... Mood swings are not good i can tell u this.
And its even worse when you are someone who likes to
daydream, imagine, and hope against hope it can happen someday.
ive been staring at my handphone waiting for a call or a sms.
for what? from who? who cares?? wth man..... this is so not me.
what stupidity! My goodness... I didnt grow up to be such a shallow person!

So i am naive, blur and most of the time clueless.
but at least i have a conscious mind working and i make an effort to perform la..
im beginning to not perform so well at work... i dunno why...
school's not bad so far but definitely can be alot better.... ALOT better.
im so worn out at the end of the day, i dont even feel like changing out of my clothes, going for my bath, check my emails, do my revisions (which are so overdued), update my class's status, get tomorrow's clothes ready, drink my soup, bring my bag into my room..........blah
i just want to lay on the couch in whatever im in, hug my huge bag and fall asleep.
in the morning, i almost always wake up in shock cos i forget to set my alarm clock, i always pray there's another 2 hours more to sleep, fall asleep at the sink brushing my teeth, just stand there and stare at my sister in bed snoring away (lol), curse myself for being so dumb at wearing contact lens, hope that the bus uncle would go faster for me, that the train im in would just stall, grumble at the fact that i have class tonight, grumble at my wardrobe for not selecting what to wear for me, hate that i have to think breakfast? or skip?(i still dont have the habit...sigh), fumble for a song in my creative for something that would wake me up, stare at that eye candy in the train beside me :p.........blah

i just gave myself the death sentence... i lurve, absolutely lurve to wake up horribly late in the morning. and of all things, i gave myself more work to do and now i have to wake up early every single day of the week. responsibility....argh....
so what if im earning from them? i have to freeze me arse off, sun in the sun, dry up me skin and hair, scream till im hoarse, and still force a smile at the end of the day consoling myself its what i want.
honestly, i am glad and happy at the end of each class. but is that what i want? i cant say yes.
the committment it too much sometimes, and really, most of the time performance is not up to me to produce and give. its out of my control 75% of the time. and its always my fault when performance is not seen. sigh....
now i cant let go of these darlings... so what if they are of all race and sizes? so what they are 6 to 55 years old? i agreed and promise to take them in, now they are under my care, and i dont give up on people easily. not when i promise i would stay with them so long they want me to. willingly. and i realise.....its not the money. otherwise why would i always forget its time to collect the monnie until they ask me and pay me? im just not good with money.... now i feel even worse.... lol

ah and this point: ahNgee MOVE ON will you?!

lucky im an optimist. at least i think so.
i like to complain, this is me~ haha...
hey! at least i put this in green (not so hard on ur eyes), lol~
sorry la... for any complains from wasting your time to what-a-load-of-crap.
but at least i updated~ buahahahah!! (^.^)

15-05-2008 1pm

i am an egoistic realistic person

2008-05-14T00:30:00.002+08:00

Q: Are You a Romantic or Realistic Girl?

A: You are Totally Realistic
Romance means you're about to roll your eyes
Seriously, you can do without the sap or drama
Save it for someone who has nothing really going on in their relationship
For you, love is real - and easily integrated into your life
You don't need candles, flowers, or chocolates to know he's the one
Just some stimulating conversation... and maybe a great smile.

Q: Are You Id, Ego, or Superego?

A: You Are the Ego
You take a balanced approach to your life.
You definitely aren't afraid to act out on your desires - even crazy ones.
But you usually think first.
Morals drive you as much as hedonism does.
You've been able to live a life of pleasure... without living a life of excess.

see...... i told u i have SUPER ego already...
okay..... so the romantic part isnt exactly what i expected. hey! i have a different definition for romantic la..... think about it. when ur man turns around and gives u a great smile and mouth 'I LOVE U' isnt that romantic already? simple and its FOC! lol!!

another polarpanda??

2008-05-11T15:53:00.002+08:00

wa~ i should've registered polarpanda.... i typed the wrong address and found

polarpanda.com/store/

some online game store, they even got polarpanda cartoonised! wa wa wah.......
okay.... now im just glad i get to keep polarpanda....
haha~ at least great minds do think alike! only they earn much much much more and im haha...... nvm...

Just Like Heaven

2008-05-11T01:18:00.007+08:00

'The dark circles were scaring the patients.'
- from movie "Just like Heaven"

I watched the last 40% of the movie twice on TV..
cant seemed to catch the first bit of this movie. but its overall a nice romantic movie.
okay something ahNgee usually dont watch but... haha~
hmm... come to think of it... i dont watch movie that often either....
wa biangz.... really no life...... T.T haiz...

anyway.....
its essentially about this doc who died and the only person who can see her is this guy.
turns out they were suppose to meet the day she got into an accident.
lol~ and so they grew to love each other during that brief moments before she woke from her coma and.....

go borrow the DVD la~

oxymoronic

2008-05-04T23:57:00.002+08:00

i dunno whether to cry or laugh now.

i've been fighting to drive dad's car since day 1 and today... i was given the almost impossible offer and i didnt blardee bring anything with me!
no driving licence, no driving! T.T Waaa........

there's an accident on PIE towards Jurong Town Hall near Toh Tuck Road exit... a massice jam was forming already and well i was asked to send a sms to 883 jia or power98. our favourite radio station, at least its a preferred thing la. and guess what, theres no DJ today! wow! wonderful! i feel like an idiot..

okay... and of all days, today cramps started. it was blardee hot, but i can still feel the chill. i feel sick, i want to sleep. my body says if u continue to heat up in this weather, im gonna force shut down. otherwise i can always fall ill cos u mistreat me, stand in the wind soaking wet then no breakfast somemore! wait till i teach u a lesson!

and my boss even better.
kenna stuck in Yangon (also known as Rangoon), Myanmar.
airport destroyed or something like that, so tomorrow's appointments and operations have to settle somehow... i'll think about that tomorrow when i'm at work.
alrdy got call from work liao... got patient in CCU aka ICU to take care off, patients due to be discharged tomorrow, have 3 pregnant ladies dangerously close to due date, patients in the queue for operation scheduled alrdy.. man... the OT nurse isnt gonna be very happy to hear my voice tomorrow morning... doctors and calling svcs to call, hospital and patients to inform...and im not enjoying the attention at all...
its gonna be a long day and i have a really bad headache alrdy... i shall get my starbucks mocha tomorrow. die die i must have my tranqilliser to soothe myself~ i think i'll have quite a few cuppa.... i can feel it coming alrdy.
i can feel myself gearing up, to put in really bad language,.... i feel like an agitated puppy seeking that warm hand to cuddle, to seek reassurance, comfort... i could use a good morning sms... havent receive any in a long long blardee long time.... hmm....

okay.... really cannot alrdy... better retire to bed before i kenna forced shut down for real.

solerworld,facebook,email,blog

2008-04-28T23:46:00.003+08:00

my life's been really boring....
even worse... i have no life.
if i have time at home, its check email, check solerworld, check facebook, get inspiration for blog, and hopefully blog something.
notice i dont even have the slightest energy to even update my fav blog?
utouchedmyheart.... where are YOU?!
alamak!

okay so there was a Chelsea vs Manchester United (2:1) on saturday at Alps Cafe and 'rochor tau huay' after that.
BUT that was it! finito!
dinner with my parents not counted la.... :p

at least i have 1 in line, i hope... fish head steamboat with my steamboat khaki~ u gers know who u are la hor..
and hopefully before that i'll get to go out with my classmates for some 'after-happy' hour fun after school on wednesday. c'mon la~ its a Public Holiday after that~!!!
and there's this pub i want to check out for ages le.... anyone want to volunteer company~
Actors the Musical Bar: 13A South Bridge Road. i know how to get there and the parking lots~!!
i scout around before alrdy~ haha.....

ah bor~ movie i also can la~
makan session also can la~ Rashikin~ how is the makan session?? lol!
or we can go to the seaside also~ haha....
or go out, drink, listen to band, relac one corner also can~
anything!!

ahNgee really haiz.... need a life besides the books and my jobs.
hello fwends~ i need U now... realli la~ (^.^)

i want to be in.........again(at least i dare to dream)

2008-04-24T01:10:00.003+08:00

i dunno what happen to me... im so tired but i cant sleep..
its already 1am plus and im still awake.
decided to pen in here...

the bus's EzLink thingy broke down the day before. earn free ride to school
BUT today.. realise EzLink card left -2.50 oops... haha

Finally got to drink my fav mocha in class~
jac today stress, she actually drank my coffee... something out of the norm~
snacked on her homemade 'heibi spring rolls', ate my boss's breakfast for dinner (not bad tasting at all~!), took taxi ride for $10, hitched a ride(to my surprise~:p), and wore a shoe for the 2nd time since CNY.

leg pain sia~ eye tired sia~ brain gone for holiday already.
im still thinking of learning guitar~ i want to be able to jam with SOLER one of these days... hopefully~ but then no time leh........ how to learn?
i've sort of given up trying to lose weight... i'll let it come to me slowly~ LOL
i want to have fish-head steamboat with pig and kitty soon~ its been a while!
i want to meet jon to collect my Pharmacology Textbook~ and maybe meet the peeps for makan or something~ how about a drink? jon u organise la~
i want to go on a holiday by the sea... anyone can organise a day at the seaside?? please???
i want to go choir again~ i miss hitting all the damn high notes!
i want to drive... no $$ how??
i want to drink, listen to u talk and stay out late~ who free? jio leh~
i want to watch movie.... alamak what was the last movie? before CNY ar~
i want to be top student, but i lost that drive....
i want to be a useful person... im still not there yet.
i want to be financially independent (that means to be self sufficient with income flowing and not having to work cos its all from the clever investments which i invested in)
i want to go OT again~ its been a while.
i want to be a nurse~ as forever, or better still medical student~ buahahah
i want to go over and compelte my year there (although i think im chickening out.... lol~) anyone interested? i need company definitely! i love company~
i want to be in love again.... i've lost that feeling again... damn... there goes my high 'feel-good-hormone' count! NO~
i want to be a superstar! everyone worship me~ haha..... i know, im dreaming already....

time to log off.... got class tomorrow after work. Xiao.......
Good Nitez~ Sleepz tight~
dream sweet, nice, things~ (^.^)

More than Words - Sungha Jung

2008-04-22T00:33:00.002+08:00

courtesy of RoNniE from SOLERWORLD, she showcased this 12 year old boy.
playing what else but one of my favourites More than Words. and seriously for a 12 year old, hes really good...
come to think about it.... what the hell was i doing at 12 years old?? mugging for PSLE?! CRAP!!

so guys and gers~ sit back and relac~ close your eyes, smell the kopi, savour the aircon and enjoy he's performance.

12 year old with he's guitar and nothing else... Sungha Jung

5 Hours of Narcissism

2008-04-13T23:35:00.002+08:00

lol~
Most people by now should know my love for singing isnt that shallow~
and i just prove to myself again how crazy i can be sometimes, especially when the adults are not there to stop me~!!
buahahaha!!!!

5 hours @ KBox Hougang from 7pm to 12midnight alone without dinner~
lol~ i would have stayed till 3am if i didnt have to work the next morning~

i probable sung 50 over songs that night.
songs which i wouldnt have sung in public, songs which i wouldnt dare to attempt unless i am confortable with the crowd. songs which are just such a bore to most people, and songs by Soler~
lol~! most would roll their eyes so hard it might just kenna stuck at the back if they were in there with me that night~

i should do this more often~ :p

rule 16: 不可用筷子tok tok tok...

2008-04-06T22:36:00.004+08:00

lol~ we had a really late lunch after all that festivities.
Y? cos we overrun alot of events and we were so damn behind time...
well... maybe because my granddad's really getting old, my grandaunty cannot take such events as much as she would love to alrdy... age really is catching on.
all the dizzy spells, shakey legs, stressful environment is really bad for their health. even for a day....

and so we had lunch.
lunch at this restaurant in telok ayer.
lunch was good, because the company, well most, is good.
and we saw this thing on the wall... internal joke...

rule 16: 不可用筷子tok tok tok...

anyway, something to share.
read what it says, its interesting to know trivals like this.

and DQ. paiseh ar~ today really overrun...
sry la~ next time k~ (^.^)

post-exam blues..ahChoo~!

2008-04-03T00:07:00.005+08:00

of all days today....
complain is a must!

how can i start today with a headache, dry throat and shakey limbs?!
ahh~ didnt go out after exams anyway.
except lunch with moon and jac at holland V for something quite light enough for the patient a.k.a. moi (sry la jiejie~ today not in the mood for gaigai la~....... and trust me its got NOTHING to do with man or men today. no uncles. :p)

im so sick now.
runny nose, sore throat and ache
all over..
i thought it was the alcohol.
nope. its official.
even beer with salt didnt work anymore.
its too late by the time i tried that to salvage the situation.
now its sleep and hopefully, i'll be well enough for work.
otherwise.... i think my boss will faint alrdy~ keke~ :p

dont feel like talking, eating, moving.
argh....sniff...sniff....
wouldnt it be so nice if someone turns up with a huge box of tissue just for u at this moment?
haha~ at least my dad gave me liang cha(horrible tasting trust me) and my mom gave me gui ling gao(better than liang cha :p) and my sister gave me the bin for the tissues~
ahh..... all except my brother. he's super sunny and honestly, he's jeering at me did cheer me up at least a little (^.^)

okay... complain liao.
feel better liao~ but not enough la... :s
back to bed.... sniff..... (>.<)

p/s: to the old man & the sicko who lives near me.
if u happen to read this by any chance... 现在。。。我比较喜欢吸。
too lazy to grab tissue sometimes~ haha!!

Balek Kampong Expressway (BKE)

2008-03-27T23:28:00.001+08:00

An email i receive from my uncle...thx ar~

Here's a good one! typical Singapore humour using our short forms.

When Mas Selamat escaped from Whitley Detention Centre, he activated a sleeper I cell to provide a getaway car....
It was the first time the young driver met the famous leader and he was eager to help.
He asked Mas where he wanted to go so that he could further The JI Cause.
"Why don't you go overseas? We'll sneak you onto a flight to Indonesia. They won't extradite you there.... I can propose our 2 regional carriers - SIA is still number 1 because Security Is Absent. But MAS is giving it a good run for its money because MAS is also Mana Ada Security!"
"No, I'm afraid of flying. I want to stay in the car. I also wanna go to Malaysia because they are all expecting me."
"How so?"
"Every town has erected a sign announcing Selamat DATANG."
"Indeed! I had not noticed. You are truly a Leader... Which route shall we take?"
"That's easy. First we head west on the Balek Kampong Expressway (BKE), then we switch over to the SLE."
"Understood. But, remind me, what does SLE stand for?"
"Singapore's Latest Embarrassment"

.........

Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved Acoustic -Down The Alley

2008-03-27T14:29:00.002+08:00

She will be LOVED

2008-03-26T00:22:00.003+08:00

im still so darn high after screaming shouting and going crazy at the Maroon5 concert ing Singapore...
buahahaha~!!! thanks to joyce, i got to go.
yup... thanks to her and her friend who's unable to make it... thanks pal~
i can still hear the band rocking away on stage even now.
my voice is hoarse, and i cant sleep.
so i thought i should just leave this last song they sang for the encore for u to enjoy.
till next time~

Maroon5 rawks!! (^.^)
p/s: im so glad i went~ i absolutely LURVE live!

She Will Be LOVED

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times
but somehow I want more

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along, yeah
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

And she will be loved
And she will be loved
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye, Yeah

煲电话粥。 get a hold of urself girl!?!

2008-03-23T23:10:00.007+08:00

its the exams.... and the reports.... and the proposal...
die... im still slacking away... dreaming away....
stressed out... a lil vex this time round.
sleep, eat (especially chocolates), sleep some more....
am I that tired? i dunno... but....
i cant control myself... i just kept falling asleep
even now... i'm feeling really ZZzz....
my crave for chocolate cannot satisfy...
dunno Y... so far i only feel contented is i have that cuppa mocha from starbucks...
which is Y i had a grande cuppa for lunch the other day.
coffee for lunch? dont worry~ im not on diet for sure!

as of yesterday i finally understood what it means to 煲电话粥。
lol~ (^v^)
to think that i really like heating my handphone to the brink of exploding in my hands.
to recall that time when i stood under a tree in the rain to do just that.
to remember the nights when i deliberately took a long walk home just to do that.
to smile at the girl who sat at that same spot i sat the last time just to talk a little longer.
to reminisce that warmth and gladness, knowing that someone remembers and wants ur attention too.
according to the K歌之王 Edison Chen, it means something nice~ harhar
but then it high time i wake up from all the dreams which might only be dreams afterall~
im not trying to put myself down... but
this is what clear minded people keeps reminding me... its going to be just a dream. T.T
so they say to me....
be a good ger, mug for the exams and really behave myself.
ya ya ya~ i can hear u~ i've been obvious, naughty and really distracted blah blah...
okay~ im trying really hard here la...

sometimes i feel that its good enough already~(^-^)
sometimes i feel really sucky...('n')
sometimes i want to slap myself so hard that i'll really wake up...(*x*)
sometimes i dunno why im trying so hard anyway...(~-~)
Geez... what am i doing to myself?! (!_!)
My brain isnt mine anymore... its ALIVE...
Eww... sometimes, like NOW, it feels so EEyeR~(>.<)

tsk tsk... ahNgee... tsk tsk tsk!

oh wait!!
oops... its not ahNgee thats naughty, its EvilNgee!
okay, EvilNgee... time take a hike.
I promise i'll let you return once the exam's over okay~?
lol against my better judgement... as usual...

DamN! ahNgee... get a hold of urself girl !!?! (",)

updating in progress

2008-03-13T17:33:00.002+08:00

My brother, POP, Rain, $2 spider and jeff, sakae sushi

an update to do when im free..

rose smelling floor? heavenly

2008-03-06T17:56:00.005+08:00

My mother was in a rather romantic mood a few days ago...
imagine adding rose essential oil to the floor cleaning solution?
well she did just that cos the floor cleaning solution was rather icky in my opinion.

and so she added a few, okay a few HUGE, drops of rose essential oil from a really dusty bottle to the pail of water.
and?
my goodness~ my room now smells really good. Heavenly!! (^^)
why havent i think of that?! all i ever did was try it on my bed or the closet.
never thought of the floor....

i bought that rose oil a long time ago cos i absolutely love that smell.
and i left it there for so long because im never home long enough to use it and well... my father hate it when i light the candle... cos its dangerous especially when u have a really young primary 1 sister running around.
Now im immersed in the smell which i missed for so long and i cant wait to be home again to walk on it!

Sniff, sniff.....Mmmmm~(^^)

Something to fill da space..

2008-03-02T22:32:00.001+08:00

You are Independent yet Devoted

You are confident enough in yourself that you do not always need that someone by your side, or need to know what they are doing. You trust that they are loyal and don't need constant reassurance. You can spend a night out with your friends and have fun, with or without your partner. Despite these characteristics, you always assure that your partner knows you are devoted to them, even through the most subtle gestures.

Quality time

Your primary language of love is quality time. Sometimes, not much needs to be said or done, as long as you spend time with friends or that special someone. Sometimes it can be tough to set enough time aside, but some quality time really brightens your week.

"SweeNgee Thought"

2008-02-03T21:34:00.002+08:00

SweeNgee Thought...
Sweeney Todd is a movie typical of Tim Burton's style.
Musical, Scary (sort-of),Tragedy....
Gloomy, Dark, Bloody...although the characters seemed to be happy in a rather strange way.
Im impressed with the singing of the characters~ loved their duets!
although it gets a little irritating with "i feel you johanna" keeps playing over and over again until it curls up in your ear like an earworm.
at the last part, the story unravels a little too fast and a little too complicated for really rusty movie-goers like me.
But it gets 4 stars from me

because its Sweeney Todd, there's my Johnny Depp and Tim Burton, there's singing and the cast is really rich~ Harhar

P/S: i wont be going near razors for a while~

at least i can say i missed you

2008-01-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

I took a walk home tonight.
It was cool, windy, quiet, dark... at the just-right concoction from nature.

I have alot to think about. but my brain refuse to get in gear.

So i walked enjoying my own company all the way home..

I savoured the whole experience, like a hungry child, relishing that i am still me since 1985

Pondering when will I walk home with someone else's company.

Pondering what is my brother doing in camp now...

Pondering if anyone out there is thinking of me at this moment, or at all today.

did anyone missed me? did I cross anyone's thoughts at all?

Pondering what will happen at this time next year...

will i walk down the same road? will i have any improvement at all?

what will i be at this time next year?

And so i reached home, relaxed and calm.

his feels so eerily foreign, its scary..

ohh time to sleep le...

damn cannot... i havent finish the soup mom left for me..

take care guys and gals

at least i can say i missed ya and yes you did cross my thoughts today.

aRGHHHhNgee~

2007-12-23T01:09:00.000+08:00

aRGHHHhNgee~ 跟自己过不去。。。

sometimes staying silent is the best strategy
~polarpanda~

if i have learnt it earlier, if i have learnt to hold my tongue
if i have learnt to be mature, if i have learnt to take and let go easy
if, only if...

okay this feels wrong, yet again....
oh yea i learnt from my young cousins that this is called
EMO-ism
Hmm..... i dont really like the sound of that.
=P

2006 Claymore Deja Vu Rose

2007-11-19T00:21:00.001+08:00

WNEMAKERS: Ben Jenneret
GRAPE VARIETIES : 85% Grenache / 15% Malbec
REGION: 100% Clare Valley
OAK MATURATION :A portion of our Clare Valley Grenache is hand harvested a little earlier to make this refreshing yet voluptuous Rose wine. Fermentation and storage in stainless steel produces a light bodied wine with vibrant primary fruit characters.
COLOUR: Pale, pretty pink.
BOUQUET: Delicate and pretty floral aromas waft along with fresh raspberry notes and musk lollies.
PALATE: Fresh berry flavours mingle with confectionary and cherries in the mouth. This is a generous rose wine with good length and wonderfully intense fruit profile. Green apple crispness balances fruit sweetness in the mouth.
GENERAL TECHNICAL NOTES: The freshness of this style is best preserved under screw cap - enjoy in its youth.
SERVE: Best served with a light chill. A great partner to summer grazing lunches or a lazy brunch of poached eggs, salmon and asparagus.
ALC: 12.5%
pH: 3.4
TA: 6.9g/L
RESIDUAL SUGAR : 18g/L

Awards & Reviews
"Grenache and Malbec blend from the Clare Valley, South Australia. Pale, rose petal pink. Fresh fruity nose with a hint of strawberries on the palate and some grapey sweetness. Easy drinking style."

e-vine by Martin Field - June 2007

"Gloriously fruit driven, it delivers a litany of berry fruit aromas, quite ripe and fresh, upfront Ð and delicious. Indeed strawberries, raspberries and cherries abound from the nose. Quite fresh, lively acidity supports the ripe semi-sweet fruit flavours and gives it good balance and high drinkability along with a savoury lingering finish. Try it with pan fried garlic prawns."

dÕvine by Paul Ippolito - March 2007

Bronze Medal Clare Valley Regional Wine Show 2006 (Top of Class)

http://www.claymorewines.com.au/dejavu.htm

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I know nuts about wines thats why the information was ripped straight from the original website.

BUT!!

I remember and No im not drunk, the one I or rather we had was 2005 not 2006.

hmm....

anyway, i realise yup.....alcohol do have an effect on relaxing people and allowing the mind to loosen up enough to spill the bottled up emotions and thoughts.

and the therapeutical effect the next day where u feel refreshed and ready to start all over again. its as if life has ended last night and today's another chapter, an empty page...

I dont have a good threshold for alcohol, at least i believe so.

Just 1 dose, i was already rambling on and on and on without feeling guilty.

LOL!!

I admit i was a lil tipsy by the time we left The Wine Hut. And we were only halfway done with the pink nectar...

on the way home on NR6, i was dosing in and out of consciousness, and its the first time in so many years that i allowed my mind to drift where it wanted to... thinking, dreaming, imagining.

the night air was good and the company before that was even better.

maybe i should do this more often... the only problem is locating the people who are willing to be my company, people who i am relax enough to drink with...

hmm......

another day at work... slacking in between

2007-11-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

yea as always its been a whole long while.. i always have so much to write, so much to ponder but i always forget them especially when my brain keeps spinning. and i mean it when i say spinning. LITERALLY it is spinning.
exams are round the corner and i'm still slacking.. i wasted deepavali holiday, and im wasting my free time now doing this instead of looking at AQM lab report. damn if i pull through
im slacking in the office 2 minutes to lunch time because the doc's not in.
why? ahh~ our dear patient lor what else? he's not gotten a wink at all and if he doesnt get he's needed nap after the last patient before lunch, i think he'll collapse.
me? i think im not that good either...
i feel dizzy most of the day. even now staring at the screen, i can feel the spin starting already... dunno if its low blood count or wat? but since im still alive and annoying, im okay.
i hope so.
its a wonder i survive yet another 'heart attack' while my friends say "not again~" with a slap to their forehead. most of you might not know what happened and im not going to play clever and put it up on my i-thought-nobody-reads-this blog. at least im proud of myself this time. real smug about it actually! see, im still talking, joking and i still pay attention to class. OOPS! buahahahah...!
okay im a lil' sore that we are not that close but watever lar~ life's like that. just take it with a huge grin and thank goodness that it coulda've been alot worse, much worse. (^^)

another lost stranger... ask where colonoscopy...? so rude somemore! aiya i lost my train of thoughts.... nvm... time for lunch...
im late for lunch can you believe it?! 16 minutes late... ciao!

finally work ends. clean up smelling of the stinky scrub, im back trying to think what was it i wanted to fill in here....? forgot liao... 545pm... late again... what happen to my 530 sharp?
im so darn drained especially when its a full clinic today... super drained. but at least its a good day for me so far~ everything went right-on-track... well sort of anyway~ good enough for me. man it feels darn good to be moving 1 step ahead of ur boss =P

okay i want to leave already. tomorrow's another looooooooooong day. half day work and a class to go to... bo bian... i love $... okay maybe im not... i always believe having enough to be a happy me is good enough. having the cash to buy what i want, eat what i want, and extra to make the people around me happy is enough cash already~ okay so you dont believe me... well do i even care? harhar~
okay i really better leave already! its 555pm! HOLY SHYT!! i've got a dinner to attend! damn i dont even remember and im not dressed for it.... oh no.... better run! burbye~!!

(^^)

character

2007-09-25T01:04:00.001+08:00

this is what i lack and i just saw it on my desk.

" the true test of character is not how much we know how to do,

but how we behave when we dont know what to do."

~John Holt~

ahh.... wise man talking...i kinda like that

impromptu. my kinda thing.

belated update.

2007-09-25T00:03:00.000+08:00

its been a long while...
i feel like i've forgotten how to write anymore.

nothing interesting happening yet.
the most exciting's got to be FACETS at Esplanade Recital Studio a while ago i reckon.
it was fun~ and im glad some of my friends went to support me~ Thanks gals!

and so its back to the old routine of work school home.
boring.
okay so i jazz it up a little with work swim school home.
but its still boring.

and so it wasnt boring when someone tried to spice up my life a little.
i am surprised myself that that pervert chose to sit by me and do his thang..
EEeewwww......
and so i complained to our dear nurse,
probably shocked him a lil bit, he got Yiyi.
Yiyi SMSed me, calm me down alot.
Yiyi's hp died, i called mom.
Mom gave permission to get my fav drink from my fav kopitiam.
the drink soothed me.
Called nurse to complain...needed to hear familiar voice.
cant eat dinner, nightmare, wake up....time for work.
Great.
just in case, girls, that's from 147 and he alighted near Bowen Sec.

MidAutumn Festival tomorrow, okay i missed it. Today.
havent eaten mooncake yet. havent.
havent shop for my boss's also.
patient gave me some, i shared them, okay gave, with the cute nurses.
i hope there's some that i can bring to class to share in the evening.
oh yea... i saved the Ferrero Rocher for class already. gotta remember diff races and religion.
i miss my grandma...i miss her cooking, her presence, especially during festivals like these.
her garden, the smell of dew, the frog croaking, the moon, her company.
okay im depressed.

last count 4 confirmed no 5 confirmed weddings coming up.
sure to lose weight.
cos no $ for lunch.
cos have to give AngPaos.
cos have to scout for something to wear.
cos everyone wants to lose weight and of all people, with me.
cos everyone knows that i'm under orders from MY BOSS to lose weight.
cos everyone wants to look pretty, and yes i do too.
although i dont really care, i still do. im just lazy to do anything.
the character test thingy's really something.
it said i'll only dress up for my someone, and if that's gone, i'll just revert to my shabby,heckcare style of fashion disaster.
im glad i havent backtracked all the way to the most ancient and original ahNgee style.
frankly, even i find it startling now. LOL

oh i missed out an accident which i am rather shamelessly PROUD of.
I FALL. from the upper deck of 153 all the way, braking just in time before the exit.
2 HUGE bruises, a broken heel, and a shocked busCaptain.
its a miracle! too bad nobody got to share the shock with me besides that poor old busCaptain.
too bad for me cos i LURVE those heels... and thankfully, i didnt sprain any ankle or back this time.
im already in such a bad shape, i can hear the doctors calling out to me, my bones begging me.
BUT.
you know la.

complains sure i have ALOT.
and on top of the list is:
as usual MEN.
alamak! im still under the radar la.... damnit.
as usual, my many JieJie s' out there blame the usual culprits.
Lazy, No-Confidence, Always Insecure, Always Act-Stupid to put people OFF and the list goes on and on and on and on and on......
okay.... so i refuse to grow up.
i want to be super childish, super stubborn, super lazy.........
i got courage lor~ this one confirm will have someone agree with me. CONFIRM. hehheh

someone ask me to list down what i want to find in ma man...
seriously i havent think of this at all.
its all the cliche things like character most important crap.
so i compiled a list of my BIMBO wants! with the help of a couple of crazy gal friends...
but.... i lost that list somewhere at the back of my brain.... hurhur~
B.I.M...... bimbo dunno how to spell~
aiya~ im not those 'u fit the bill' thinking kinda person.
so dont ask me why. cos its many many things good and bad together that helps me like u.
im someone who dont like routine. i love surprises. not SURPRISE!! but something new, something different. something less routine like.

okay nevermind... its late and im not making sense... even to myself.
better get some sleep soon, many MSNer screaming at me to go sleep alrdy...
ciao.. till next time when i let my brain matter spill...

5 hours

2007-08-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

5 hours starting at 3pm till 8pm.
3.5 hours: laparotomy, myomectomy, cystectomy, frozen-section.
followed by
1.5 hours: anterior resection.
3 doctors, 2 procedure and me.

cross my fingers i dont do anything funny.
lest i faint... which i hope not.

Girls are like apples on trees...

2007-08-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

Girls are like apples on trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree. The boys dont want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the rotten apples from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples at the top think someting is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing. They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree....

I just have to put this up.

No offence girls~ No arrowing intended.

It's just that an 16 year old was trying to cheer me up and she gave me this.

It's her little essay which she remembers every now and then to cheer herself up,

whenever she feels down and sucky.

This made my day, i hope it made yours too.

Thanks darlin, you know who you are~

(^^)

bad habits good habits?

2007-07-29T13:48:00.000+08:00

i must be crazy!
or i must have cultivated a habit which just has to go.

take it as save money, save time, save brain power.
i have to learn not to send SMS first thing after i switch off the alarm clock.
i have to learn not to be so irritating.

damn~
even i find myself irritating.
time to reorganise!
time to get back on track!

ahh.... but the habit to dress properely when i go out, no handphone during meals, play hard work hard has to stay!
it's hard learning them and i'm not letting these leave me anytime soon!

(^^)

highlights of the week.

2007-07-29T01:36:00.000+08:00

ATM forget money. Handphone left at doorstep. Shoe left in office. Cobbler in Singapore.

Daily happenings. Daily jokes. Daily junks.

rain. i should have known better than to drink on empty stomach.
beer.... and then mix beer with diluted vodka and whisky..... i should have known.
im lucky.

i still love 'you are the sunshine of my life' and 'dont know why'
i'm not keen on 'you make me wanna fall in love' at the moment.
im glad im taking things relatively good. not over reacting, not being immature.
i've really grown up if not at least a little.
im glad things are going to be the same.

i lost 10 kgs.
still look like crap. sian.....

CRAP.WADEVER.

ahNgee~ time to come back. come back soon. i miss the (^^)

FACETS by Consonance

2007-07-09T16:17:00.000+08:00

FACETS by Consonance

Yoyo! I'm back from CAMP! as usual i return one step closer to the dark side.

Exams are coming, loads of report to complete...
In the midst of all these I found myself kaypo-ing in another dramatic suicidal act.

Consonance is a choir which is unique in our own ways.
Nope we are not a school, professional nor a church choir.
In fact we are a multi-racial, multi-religion, multi-personality...okay.... a ROJAK choir.
dont be mistaken!
we are registered and we dont con.
AND we have a concert coming up soon!

most importantly of all.....
I, 我，私、Moi, 나 자신.......... YES i am performing too!
you know what to (^^)

FACETS by Consonance

So you're not in love with him anymore?

2007-07-01T22:33:00.000+08:00

So you're not in love with him anymore?

An extract from the movie Bewitched

Nicole Kidman said:

"I have never disliked a man
more in my entire life...

...which proves that I am
completely over him.

Not necessarily. In fact...

Besides, it was just a crush, which is
an intense but superficial attraction...

...that can easily be mistaken for
something deeper. Now go away. "

My answer:

" I wish. I wish I am as sure as she is..."

FireFlies

2007-06-17T15:55:00.001+08:00

Finally... i got my well deserved trip just yesterday...

Fireflies.

I didnt expect the trip to be so exhausting.

It started at 5am and i reach home at 1am...

as expected, i comatose in the bus everytime the trip took longer than half an hour.

my mom wasnt surprised but my dad was terrified =)

he was (and still is) when i fall asleep as soon as i board the plane, slept throughout and only wake when we landed. haha~ my aunty call this a gift.

anywayz

it was drizzling throughout the trip.

the meals not bad considering that the lobster was fresh... hehheh

the fireflies, ah so.... AWWwwww.......

its been a long time since the last time.

i was in Thailand, Chengmai.

living in a valley with villagers and our only connection was a setallite phone from the Singapore Embassy in Thailand. i was on a OCIP trip.

Fireflies surround me every single night, during dinner, showers, even as im falling asleep.

it was beautiful and really, its beautiful when theres nothing modern there besides our torchlights. they have this calming effect. the blinking, the flowing river, the quietness...

this time, i saw them while travelling on a boat. its a new experience and i havent really gotten over it. i wasnt excited or anything close.

it felt like im searching for this feeling, like meeting an old friend.

and there they are...

i dont know what got to me. i told my mother 越夜越美丽。。。

she just smile. my dad thought im ill... my sister...well she's just too excited.

just then, the young couple travelling with us kissed. it was just so romantic...

my dad not wanting to lose to them snuggle with mother...

im glad im there to give them their time alone.

im glad im there.

and i made a promise to myself, the next time i go there, it would be with someone special...

someone romantic...

cherries! my fruit debut

2007-06-09T00:10:00.001+08:00

i was munching on one of them when i realise the water droplets are so pretty~!!

and suddenly my brain just sparked and i realise i haven touch my camera for a darn long time!

just look at my silica gel turning a pinkish shade of purple!

so i started my camera, tuned the time and pressed the shutters~ adjusted the aperature twitch the shutter speed and voila!

i am so darn happy so darn HAPPIE!!!

i cant believe i am munching on these poor things right now~

ahwell~ they are where i got them for! haha!

enjoy!!

MEN

2007-05-30T22:50:00.000+08:00

men men men.... really hot MTVs, good looking guys, superb song. SEXY....
i cant get these two songs outta my head!

enjoy guys...

Maroon 5 VS Soler

makes me wonder 陌生人

Start!

Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder

Soler - 陌生人

Dogma Theory...modern

2007-05-20T19:04:00.000+08:00

during the typing of my lab report... my brother added he's view on translation (fresh from he's lecture)

3. After an mRNA message is translated during translation in the cytoplasm, mRNA said, “NA BEI LIM BEH LIANG TEH LEH!?”. The resulting product is a polypeptide chain consisting of many amino acids joined together by peptide bonds between the carbon and nitrogen atom. “Here arises a problem, should we go eat dinner outside or should we stay home and cook dinner” asked the wise Amino Yoda. Replied in true Buddhism wisdom, the Amino Dahli Lama said “Yo my black brother! Anything is cool yo. As long as we would be is playing ma fave black track “Heart Sutra” by Eminem feat. The Birdman Singers.

Haiz.. isnt life just fun when you have a brother...?

Alone In Love. 恋爱时代。

2007-05-13T02:07:00.001+08:00

maybe its been a long time since i sat down ant watched TV already. maybe im just feeling lonely. its like the period when i was watching Winter Sonata. 冬季恋歌. after its fever wore off.

most people would remember that show. i did. now its Alone In Love. 恋爱时代。its about a couple who discover they are still very much in love with each other after their divorce. isnt it silly? i am so silly. its only a show! yet i am still feeling that tang of sour, achy heart for the girl in the show. times when she had to swallow her tears and watch her ex-hubby with another girl. times when she felt so lonely but had to endure alone. that loneliness, sadness, hopelessness... i can feel her man. the feelings are so real.. so real...

Vivocity, Carl's Jr

2007-05-06T16:02:00.000+08:00

Snowman~! aiya weather so hot..snowman lost weight le~

its been a while and yes i know some of me fwends are complaining... paiseh la darlins...
i've got so much to share but my brain has only so much memory space... forgot most of my ideas already.
but i've got 1!

VivoCity.
dont tell me you havent heard of it!
even I've been there! as of last night of course~ aha

its big... yup. its spacious... yup. its crowded.. yup. and i dont really like it. i dont know why. guess i dont really like crowded places thats all. its like theres only so many places to go in Singapore. everyones where you are. but okay its a nice mall with lotsa things to see. i dont mind window shopping with galfwends there. walk talk gossip crap and just hang out. money is an issue and i get bored easily. lost concentration. no stamina. but at least last night going there for the fun of it with my mom and dad and lil sis was good. i like it when we hang out like this. i want to do that more often...... oh yea. did i say yesterday was also my first time eating Carl's Jr?

surprise? dont be.