TsunamI

i felt this great urge to go any one of the countries affected by the Tsunami just to do my part for the people over there...

may it be just the mere job of being there to provide the emotional support...

or there to do my part for the people with muscle power...

or even to provide relief for the dead...

its just too much for the whole world to bear after 912( taiwan earthquake), SARS, and now the Tsunami evolved from the underwater earthquake of a scale of 8.9 .

all these seemed to be reminders of mother nature to us that we are as insignificant as when we've first existed on earth.

when compared against the brutal forces of nature, the man made destruction of 911 as well as the war in iraq seemed really puny and meaningless however meaningless they are before comparison.

why do men torture themselves endlessly...

when fighting nature has been very tough, and most of the time we are on the losing end of the war...

ever since we've started fighting...

i've changed alot these few years. i was emotionally more stable than i am now...

i cry when i see corpses lying around in the water or in clumsily dug mass graves and left in the open while the very last of their strips of pride are being torn away unforgivingly by the living and the helpless.

it pains me to see the child of many heartbroken parent's being treated this way. although i know that that is the best treatment everyone can offer at this point of time.

i hate this weakling side of me. i want to be stronger than i am ever emotionally.

i want to provide comfort and warmth to the grieving people rather add onto the number of upset members of the public.

when will i be mature enough, wise enough to behave in a way more helpful than i am now...

there are many people in need of attention however meek in the world.

i cannot attend to them all but at least i can offer my wee amount of assistance.

a little can go a long long way...