May 30, 2005

barnum effect/ kidsfest

as what jonnyboy enlightened me
here's a brief explaination

Barnum Effect :
is a term that is used in psychology.
It is the tendency for people to accept very general or vague characterizations of themselves and take them to be accurate.
A good example of this can be seen when people believe what is said about them in psychometric tests, personality profiles, astrological predictions and so on.
This phenomenon is named after P. T. Barnum, who believed that a good circus had "a little something for everybody."
Even though the descriptions or descriptive terms used in the inventories, typologies, and tests can apply equally well to other people, some individuals are gullible enough to believe they are unique to themselves.
Of course, this is exactly what happens with the horoscope, palm reading, and crystal ball gazing (Referring to the comments of P.T. Barnum, 1810-1891, American showman, about public gullibility).

paranomality.com

i was involved in the Kidsfest as usherer for the concert hall at ACS(barker road)
it's fun except of the long hours of standing at the door, explaining non-stop to the crowd, announceing and well hunger basically.
but im happy at least when i see happy kids and parents.
except for the occasional 'heart-wrentching moments of the usherers' that is haha
well i have wonderful friends there
aryln from act3, lorraine,xinyi,addrianna,jeffrey from malaysia act3,taufik,grace,michael esch the pianist and duffllebags from canada,and many more that i cant recall the name at the moment.
its ending this wednesday at 2pm officially. and well it will be such an experiance... haha
thanks charmaine for the introduction!

today i had a 5 person outing with some of slacker club people.
went to j8 and met them before going to causeway point for a movie after leaving Kidsfest.
watched a korean movie "my boyfriend is type B"
nice show but then touched a few spots in me haha...
suddenly miss him a lil haiz... stupid emotions.
anyway im glad i went with them to the movie... balances me out from the hetic no play life.
looking forward to the Kbox outing tomorrow ad well im hoping that i can make it that is...
better do my homeowork for tomorrow first...

au revoir for now...

May 26, 2005

oww....pain...

another appointment yesterday...
i am suppose to be healing really well....
then i have to find another 3 on me hands.... hurt like hell... sobz...
i cant even type properely but then i need an outlet to vent this frustration and helplessnessss.... the ones on me feet are healing and will disappear most probably by next week.

i am optimistic.
yes very opmistic except that the hands are of a thiner skin and i think the last treatment killed like the surrounding cells and my nerves round that area are raw like nobody's business..
and the boils(or wadever they are known as) had to be so damn painful...
sobz sobz... cant write cant bath cant do nothing properely...
then i had to fall again and sprain me left foot today while going to the japanese language class...

but on the good side someone decided to help. haha handsome somemore haha!
almost drown when this sweaty gorgeous guy came to me obviously after a run at the stadium beside...

" are you okay?"
"huh(concentrating on my foot trying to stand and 'ignoring' him)"
"(helps me up) you want a ride home?"
"(thoughts OMG! Y!) err... thanks but i think im okay already. im on the way to a lesson"
"really?? you sure you dont a ride?(smiles)"
"err...yes, i'll be fine thanks.(turn and run)"
"you really okay har??(follows me)"
"yea yea really okay already! thanks!(grin and tries to walk properely)"

okay you guys might be surprise but its the truth! i swear man!

anyway finally see someone living near me who's looking my type haha!

the month of june, cancarians are ranked 4th in the aspect of love/relationship or 'tao hua'
haha finally see something interesting for a cancarian like me hopefully...
anyway it most prob will not be very true since i still see nothing leh... haiz...
anyway im hopeful lar! if got good news i'll write in there!(most probably only!haha)


May 23, 2005

what my birthday means

haha!
so i didnt know that besides the usual guests who gives me lots of remarks on my entries,
i have mysterious readers! okay you know who you are 'xian jian'
haha beat me lor! anyway i bet nobody here know who you are lar!
chey!

great i cannot badmouth alot of people liao......

hmm...
got a miserable but fun 3 people outing on 21/5/05(sat) at PS which moved to J8 for a bitching session! in the end geri bitched about herself and grumble that she's not beautiful enough for her dear boyfriend zhehong... haiz... geri arh! imperfection is PERFECTION!
than xk want us to bitch about him! wa! what happen?! is it snowing outside???
ahwell its not that i dont want to bitch but i dont feel comfortable doing that with the 'victim' looking at me haha.

heres a lil something i got from ゆきふみ, a birthday thingy
haha interesting what it says about me~


Your birth on the 2nd day of the month adds a degree of emotion, sensitivity, and intuition to your life.
The 2 is a very social number allowing you to make friends easily and quickly.
Yet you are apt to have a rather nervous air in the company of a large group.
You have a warmhearted nature and emotional understanding that constantly seeks affection. You are more prone than most to become depressed and moody, as emotions can turn inward and cause anxiety and mental turmoil.
It can be hard for you to bounce back to reality when depression sets in.
whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz

interesting hor!

anyway jon you broke through my brother's defense...
yes, that paragraph is meant for you guys and hidden from a particular you-know-who haha...!

May 20, 2005

late, friends, love, astrology

aiyah time pass so damn fast one arh?!
so fast and i have to conduct my last lesson with group C of Ahmad Ibrahim Primary next week....
AND that damn bus has to break down and cause me to be LATE! freakin 5 minutes late when i am suppose to be like 15 freakin minutes early as usual!!!
anyway its nice to see that the students know how to swim Freestyle liao lar! although i cant make and coax the other 2 who are hydrophobic to swim... so sorry dearies...

anyway i think its the time of the year when i start this cycle of missing my friends again....
i feel so lonely all of a sudden and it seems that seeing you all often during this period has no effect whatsoever during this dark period... haha but then its just psychological i guess....

anyway its nice to have another outing organised so fast by the dear Slackers-Club.
(yes its slackers club)
go Kbox and sing our heads off.... although i shy shy all the time when faced with the mic and the last time i sang was at a family outing a few years ago... damn gotta practice liao!
then there is dear xk who wants to organise a meeting of a few close fwends but then as usual he never reply again... chey!

i was watching this show on SCV the other day and i found that somethings just cant be explain easily...
i was fond of Astrology. its just something thats like supernatural the way it behaves.
thats why i like it all the more! back to my point...
the particular master of astrology claims that in order to make cancerians like moi confess our love for somebody~ all you have to do is get our friends to match us as a pair all the time and soon after that i'll start to believe that this whole joke it true...
okay sorry but i forgot about the others liao....

anyway..., the point is apart from the others before, this recent guy that i liked is someone that all my friends from all over would pair me up with... and it turns out that i liked him finally after 3 years of pairing up, taunting and practicing love songs together.
(who the hell takes 3 years?! okay maybe except me lar...!)
hey! i may be dumb but then i never thought this kinda of joke can have an effect on people like me after 3 years okay!
especially when after i thought this guy sucked, the astrologist has to come on TV and tell the whole world that cancerians can be affected by taunts and pairing up activity! chey!! pure hoax man!



May 11, 2005

another permanent immigrant

warts... virus... skin... nitrogen treatment... bloodvessel... my feet...

sorry they still dont make any sense to me still...
the nurse say that the virus is in my blood... ya so??
what is the ultra-painful-head-bang-against-wall treatment for?!
for fun arh?! got alot of $$ to burn isit?! wabiang....

this time and last time i go myself... they found out that my other leg also got...haiz...this time the nurse ask me okay ornot cos i got the early symptom of going to faint...
=>cold sweat
chey! ppl scared mah sure cold sweat one! no faint lar!! wont faint one!

then this nurse very good, but then too good... pain like hell and i end up unconsiously banged me head against the wall... haha i did that so hard the nurse got a shock and the staff nurse from next door thought got ppl faint or something... apparently i hit my head real hard on the wall... poor wall.... Oww...

shyt got another one on the tuesday after the public holiday(vesak) die... this time i really scared liao...but then i think its healing lar... then the nurse had to say she think i need to come for more then one more treatment & if i stay healthy and my immune system dont fall sick again i should not get another outbreak of warts...
ya so its like in me forever liao lar! great! another permanent immigrant. -_-

update? hmm last week's swimming lesson cancel last minute cos got heavy rain... hiaz... but then i have 24 to cover and till now i got like 6 only...maybe i'll sign up with some club to complete the 24... sianz... still not earning from the attachment...
well i still havent got any news from any uni at all and its starting to worry liao...
siao siao...
my days are definitely not turning out the way i want it to be.... i want to go uni~! please......
got jap lesson today... yesterday keep confusing french and jap... now my french teacher thinks im japanese... ah well my life is full of confusion and uncertainty... haha at least i can still laugh.

May 07, 2005

i feel tired...

haiz... today dunno why but then i feel realli tired...
dont even have the energy to walk properely and i feel really sleepy...
something is wrong with me...
its like a chore to force myself to write this entry today... my hands are not responding... uhoh...

haha so happy jas replied my letter! wow she really regain her confidence liao arh!
mus agree with yan haha! well at least i feel better finding her again... well its gonna take time but i believe we can start again!
geri~ dont be jealous okay... she's the friend of my time during the secondary school time.
someont who introduce me to many many forms of enjoyment and celebrated my birthday at lau pa sat just for me! so i have alot to thank and be grateful for from her~!
i adore you very much still okay! trust me the last thing i want is to lose you guys!

hmm...jas and yan~ if you are reading this... please add me to your MSN can? Pluuueeeaaasssseeeeeee........ :D

i have this urge to see all my friends suddenly...
dunno why but its a feeling that i have...
like a fear that i dont know how to discribe...

May 05, 2005

dear ゆきふみ...

hmm....
im at a lost again...
maybe my memory failing.... maybe im dying.... shit

hmm... i just found the blog of a very dear friend from a long time ago but lost her after O level...
i know its my fault but im trying to make up for all that ive missed out... at least im trying really hard....
well i miss them so so much...sobz... she like my only friend back then although i think ive been nasty to her before too... sorry lar ゆきふみ...
well she's the one im most apologetic to cos i thought im like the best friend to her but i forsaked her... bad bad ngee... yea now everyone know that im not a really good friend liao...
its nice to see everyone doing better than me! and it feels sucky to be behind everyone in the academic race... okay im dumb lar what to do?!

hmm... Oww..... stupid period...
owww.... i think im going to rest..... owww......

May 03, 2005

another entry

well i really dunno what to type in here because i forgot what i want to type in here initially...
hmm.....

oh yea sweengee is finally considering (note: CONSIDERING only) that maybe i should lose some extra inches thats been with me like since im born...
sad but maybe they have to go... well thats because EVERYONE around me's SHOUTING at me to go lose some weight.... haiz...

i went and watched LOTD and well it was enjoyable but not excruciatingly exciting as i expected it to be... nah nevermind...

i've been sleeping like at 5am recently... dunno why but aiyah im tired and i want school which i am having doubts that i will ever get again since i let go of the @#%$!! A levels.... damn.... grumbles.........loudly..... stupid stupid stupid....


haha yes charm Da Vinci Code really nice and yes i finish yet another by the same guy
'Angels & Devils' another nice story.... why cant every single writer do the same magic...
i hate it when i return from the library with boring books... sigh....

i am hooked onto the song ' you make me want to fall in love' by F.I.R.
well dunno why but i thought its some of those nice songs that i like because the lyric is meaningful and the tune is nice too... not many songs pass this requirement of mine...
so far i think only 3.
'don't know why' , 'forever love' by LeeHom, 'you are the sunshine of my live' and this song make it in my list... haiz miserable 4... maybe it'll grow somehow...

when i have more to crap then maybe i'll type again...
for now this is just another episode, another page, another entry...