no.61

i didnt know that i blog/crap so damn much until i saw how many entries i actually have in like less than half a year(60) this is the wonderfully crappy 61st haha!!!... hmm...
guess i have much more time and energy to crap online than anything else!

well i hate people quarrelling around me especially if its my family members!
my goodness you dont know how irritated i get when i hear the shouts and screams!
well i almost stomp out of the house just now... and as usual its my brother and my mother screaming each others heads off at each other... BAH!!!
so noisy so irritating cant stand it! well i cant stand anyform of quarrel at all unless it involves me (but usually i end up laughing over it before everyone cos i dont see sense in it at all!)
well not that i dont see the sense in it but its like all of us feel better after screaming at nonsense and hurting each other and then realise that its all over practically nothing... haiz... talk about the delimma of life.

actually i've been in an extremelly foul temper this week.
why?! why the HELL do you even ask?!
haha just to emphasise my point haha!!! no offense okay!
its da foot... stupid foot stupid virus...
its hurting like hell everytime i walk that i gave up trying to make myself comfortable...
well this time there were a lot more blister that develope as compared to the lone one the last time... at it hurt a lot more then last time... cant walk liao lar!!!
got attachment tomolo.... can dont go....? haiz of course i know cannot lar!
must attend and let ppl smirk at me...haiz who will believe in a young oversized overweight swimming coach? haha i dont think i will in the first place... haiz...

i just pia finish the Da Vinci Code then now 'pia'ing the Angels & Demons.
well nice book! havent read one thats so nice for a long long time!
the last few that i read were really boring! ZZZzzzz.....
watever~

Thank You

it was 1 am of 22 april 2005

someone knocked at my door...
an uncle in his fiftys clad in bermuda and a tee waved a wallet and asked for me...
it happens so that i dropped my wallet at the void deck and he stumble upon it...
how nice of him to actually return it to me with everything intact...
at least i didnt find anything missing that is...
i didnt have a chance to thank him and he left...

so heres a THANK YOU!!

actually i have something that i want to enquire...
i was thinking of getting extra money by selling handmade earrings online...
but then i dont feel like actually setting up an online store... i prefer the word of mouth thingy lar...
i was thinking of asking simon about this but i havent the time to contact him yet...
well if anyone's interested, can call me or mail me!
Cheers!

L.O.V.E. ngee

i was thinking alot recently about how i feel and how i react to things around me~

my overly summarised finding...

i like company of friends and people but i dont like the insecurity of being left alone in a big group (hence my Attract-Attention behaviour which pisses me off sometimes)
its like i like and enjoy (almost thrive on) friendly, light-hearted, truthful, joyful atmosphere.
take for instance how high i got just seeing my fwends last saturday.
i like being taken care of too... haha that concern feels too nice to reject!(ahh the warmth!)

but on the other hand i also like being left alone in the dark and quiet corner just to feel that peace and solitary with myself...
i get a little creepy at times like this because i start to evolve into a totally different me...
scared myself sometimes too! like how i'll suddenly cry uncontrollably and then become unusually quiet and still later, almost psychotic like.

another finding...

i like the company of many female friends becuse i like to hear their gossips and their many exciting stories like how they tahan that other friend or what did they do with their boyfriend, blah blah...

i simply adore the company of male friends (yes males) who treat me like their little sister.
i feel so blissful when they dote on me. it gets really great when they let me make alot of noise and try to please me... (i guess this is the effects of wanting a bigger brother really badly)

then there's this really close friends that i have who treat me like a brother...
i dont like (hated) that but then i cant change the way they treat me even though i really tried to change the way they treat me... sobz... i failed myself miserably...
but then those that are like male chauvinist i cannot tahan! especially when they ask me to shut up! humph!

aiyah i just want a bigger brother so badly im confusing sibling love for my fwends(males~im no lesbian) to crushes...
i need to wake up liao...

hmm... i decided to remove the songs although it makes the blog more appealing to me...
but then nevermind since NOBODY reads my blog anymore! humph!
okay maybe its exams time but then i feel kinda lonely reading and updating myself mah!

haiz...

my foot like swelled after yesterday night... painful to walk man.. but then i will survive this predicted 8 weeks of toture! haha i will prevail!!! muahahaha!!

class outing? or jus hangin' out

i dont know if im going to be sued for this but i am really MAD now

stupid hotoffer! stupid torjan horse!
why cant they see that not everybody enjoys porn like they do?!
my goodness they even make it conplusory to view! wth?!
change my homepage, gimme some EWWWwww porn pop-ups and keeps coming back despite my fervent effort to remove the damn thing!....
and whats with the horsey huh! there is no damn GRASS here lar! go away!!!!!!

oops... pardon my language dearies im just too damn frustrated liao lar!
besides i have a feeling that the anti-virus and antispyware are responding too slowly to all these threats... well its a tough fight but then its a lil' TOO slow aint it guys?!

jia lat i complain too much liao... haha...
hmm... well i was intending to go to the class outing sooner but.... sorry guys....
well it seems that our class outing can be renamed to close friends outing or the
pesudo-girlfriend/pesudo-boyfriend outing or the family outing....
haha i prefer the pseudo-bf/gf one!! makes me feel less lonely...
*hint hint*
well its really nice to see everyone well and it feels exceptionally good to have fun together again!
hmm.... we had a KFC dinner courtesy of jonny-boy, watched samara at 3rd cinema of cathay, crapped alot and help hozefa and jonny choose hand-bands! haha white green and black!
i didnt want to leave so early but then i dont feel like hanging around with xk only...
oops... hehe...

aiyah dunno when the next outing will pop up... i havent been so overly happy and excited and hyper since dunno when... sobz...

ohh did i mention the horror movie was not on the screen but beside me?? ahh... 2 guys doing something funny beside me... a little creepy but more interesting than the norm. im not against gays but then i always believe that mushy behaviour should be done like less obvious...

well im lao tao liao... but i promise i'll be more open next time okay!

Forever Love

ahh...
these are the few songs that puts you in the lovely mood despite the @&%! weather~

featuring WangLeeHom's Forever Love and the track before NorahJones's Don't Know Why (cant find KenHerai's geez...)

okay i am still that stupid gal waiting for some loving experience ya?
so just ignore me while i imerse myself in all these lovey dovey song~ haha
or maybe you want to tell me your true feeling for me?!
haha okay okay! dont puke can?!

ohh~ forever love~! forever love~!

haha

liquid nitrogen at -100++ VS me

phew!

after yesterdays expensive but relatively tolerable treatment im glad i have only 3 more to go through...
yes its the supposed treatment for the supposed warts i've contrated that might not be warts afterall... hmm...

dearie geri was so terribly sweet to pei me to the place~ MUACK! thank you geri!!! hee~
Ahh~ what would i do without you~

but then i was really terrified if what the freezing could do to me especially destroy my cells and render me handicapped...
okay i was imagining things too far off the tangent but according to what i know my cell WILL die after the frozen water in the cells rutpure the call basically... so i have every right to be afraid of the unknown scary treatment what?!

but its kinda fun after the less than 5 minute treatment i think...
and yes i havent changed that natural reaction that i have since birth...(laughing hysterically in the face of any pain)
the nurse is really nice but i didn't get my SWEET! humph! no sweets for me after all that pain and cooperation!

I WANT MY SWEET! NO PAINFUL TREATMENT IS OVER WITHOUT SWEETS!!!

ah well its was basically just pain and swelling after that when geri brought me to meet the curry smelling xk from India haha!
we had TEPPANYAKI..! haha i had the mushroom set Mmmmm nice~! haha
but then thanks to india we didnt get to watch any movie haiz... except talk at MAC's until 11plus over i cup of berry yogurt and a large ice lemon tea.... waaa so full!
im glad we are sitting most of the time but then that guy had to forget to bring souveniors! SOBz!

now im too lazy to move anymore besides not moving means no pain mah! muahahahaha!!!!!
dont scold me lar~ let me recover a little first lor~ haha excuses excuses...
okay lar~ i'll move more lor~!
*roll over*
there!! :P

YES! its ALIVE!!!

well yes my com's been revived
but unfortunately i lost all my contacts such as fellow blogger's address (care to gimme them again dearies?)
so for the moment i will be here while i feel like it lar!

hmm... i dont really know what to say or blog at the moment cos i fell like crap today as always...
okay i know ahDin boeing boeing is really nice and i have abdomenal ache now~
qingming was a torture cos besides my acheing feet after traveling from 8am to 5pm i have of all things the dreaded SUNBURN... oww....
i feel dehydrated still and i have to go see doc to freeze some warts virus off my feet with yes liquid nitrogen if i hear correctly from the doc...
so now im like a little jumpy and frighten ah DUR!!!

oh yea im in the midst of swimming coaching and yes the childrens are over enthusiastic
i dont really like that cos they are so into this they want to show you what they know...
and because of that i cant teach properely...
too bad i cant get really angry at them cos their teachers are watching me and well i dont want to turn nasty...
well i'll just try harder next week...

okay i think its time i go get some rest before the time comes...SOBZ!

more crapping yet again~

heya people!!!
hmm..... i shall announce the official breakdown of my computer yet again!
and at the moment i am doing this blog at geri's place using her com and all other stuffs that coms along in the package haha!!!

well.. actually i was kinda hoping that you use the tagboard more so that i can read all your shouts of disapproval or anything that comes along with it...
i am a really democratic person okay?!

haha! i think its the weather~ the nice rain and coolness that comes with it! okay i tell you the truth lar! i am a very yin person although i am yang more according to the sensei's but then i prefer bright cold windy and wet more than the opposite~ haha see....

i am actually going to a cosplay convention next year with geraldine~ i thought that it might be fun to be out of my shell of 20 year old me and become a totally foreign me! well geri help me come out with a character in FF i forgot the number but then i know its a WHITE MAGE haha~

being the lazy me i have the fetish for things that require less work and yet have the same WOW effect and cuteness and well uniqueness in hoping that i am the only person in that costume there~ besides being a white mage allows me the space to hid the flabs and bludges haha~ my main motive for the characters costume!

okay i think its long enough to occupy you guys for say 5 minutes liao lar~
shall think of what to write again the next time i get into contact with computer again~ hopfully i manage to get my com fixed by then~!
*MUACK!*