give me a job!

I've been back for ages now and yet I am still jobless!
No one wants me. Period.
Why? I ask myself too. Why?!

All I ask for is a chance to prove to you my capabilities.
That I am that person you want.
All I need is a chance.....

Honestly.
I know I can't do sales for nuts.
I know I am definitely excited by the mere thought of a research project.
I know I love people, travelling, teamwork, presentation, etc.!
I am a workaholic, good is never good enough when I am responsible for a task.
I need a job.
Not only because I need the income.
But because I want to be the staff that surprises you with what I can give.
I am always proud of the company I join, and I need the company to be proud of me too!

It's really late now and before I ramble off track,
I am looking for a clinical research position. OR drug research is fun too.
Please jus try me out.
Be it a Singapore or British job.
Like I say. I love travelling, flying, moving.
Even if it's for work. It's joy to me.

A little something to bring on a new beginning to blogging

The JapanFever is slowly evolving into KoreaFever...

I think I've got it too...cant get enough of this!

ok. this is scary...22 followers?! since when do I get followers on my blog!???

lmao~ thanks guys~

and peeps who left comments!

Gosh~!!! I am so sorry I only saw them today!

What have I been doing?!

(dont tell me fb....nope thats not exactly it lols~)

xx

Quote2: Meself

greatness is knowing that i'll be somewhere in your thoughts today
-SN Ang-

Quote1: Mark Twain

Twenty years from now
you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do
than by the ones you did do.

So throw off the bowlines.
Sail away from the safe harbor.
Catch the trade winds in your sails.

Explore. Dream. Discover.
~ Mark Twain ~

Snowy sleepless nights

Ive called myself polarpanda for ages now.
an organism that tries desperately to connect itself with snow and wintery weathers.

now that im finally in UK, and its darn cold. its snowing.
small snow showers, heavy big snowflakes blizzard, gentle falling of snow on the nose etc etc...
Ive even learnt that a hot cup of tea and a good book beside a window full of falling snow can be a really sinful act of relaxation, comparable to enjoying good chocolate and mocha on a lazy afternoon.

I cant sleep. Just like when i was back at home.
Bad habit.
Im trying to concentrate and attack my dissertation with as much power in can infuse it with.
I want to do well, like i always do, dream, tried too.
But the snow is just too much for this head.
its hypnotic watching the snow.
the cold always makes me shiver from the bottom of my spine up.
and forever, i would shiver and chatter like how they describe it in children's books.
today? its 3am going 4.
im in my room beside the already cooled radiator and the window which is standing brave against the cold knifing its way through to me.
Im typing away. verbal diarrhea.
drinking tea, hugging my fav pillow.
listening to Misty by Kenny G.

it all began with the itchy fingers and tired eyes diverting attention from dissertation onto msn.
and falling on the one love that DNA had stubbornly refused to remove its liking tagged to him.
so began the dramatic waltz of tease and taunt.
words flow, sentences form and the scroll bar began to shrink like a door opening to allow memories to flow out yet again.
ah... The Stylistics are singing Can't Give You Anything.
yes indeed... cant give me anything.
but mere satisfaction to the eager desperado clinging onto whatever imaginary romance it can squeeze from these words which are words of play from two bored strangers trying for some fun.

and so its time again for Goodbye Days - YUI.

自私 by Cherry Tsui

自私 by Cherry Tsui

Friday, 25 December 2009 at 19:25

自私
令一些人想得太簡單太完美
覺得全世界都會成就他想要的
認為人人會為他
但自己卻丁點兒都不會為一下別人

自私
令一些人都覺得自己很完美
有問題的是身邊的人
全世界都不正常
全世界都應該跟自己的做法去做

人類都是自私的
人類天生就是自私

改不了

因此別說人自私

因為
你都很自私

and the vampire said to the doctor.... im allergic to blood.....

confidence growth

maybe its the culture and attitude difference, maybe its just me in a new environment.

somehow, I feel that I am a more confident person now.
confidence in terms of personality. not the fake fronts which I always put up when faced with a presentation, confrontation or even for performances.

I always have this thing about how I look and my figure.
like DUR! I am like flabby and seriously not a looker totally~ and its somewhat funny that in sg, people like me arent granted the right to dress up and try to be pretty. u would just get so much eye rolling and coaxing to dress down and get back into the background!
but over here, irregardless of how u are shaped or looks like, it is ok to dress up in whatever u feel like and wants to.
in fact they dont see why u cant dress up at all!

vainity aside, theres the confidence as a person.
over here i am asked to SPEAK UP! they say i speak too softly cos i lack the confidence in myself and that i am capable and just as good as anyone else here.
seriously, i realise that a long time ago, but people just ignore me even if i start to shout in sg.
here, they actually ask u to have your say. its like when u try to get into a conversation, and u cant really get into it, they would come back and ask you what was it u wanted to say and they dont take 'nothing' as an excuse to skip.

even in choir, honey drums, canoe, scuba, H2O polo etc.... I am not singled out cos if how i look. in fact, they treat me like everyone else. no exceptions. U have to swim as hard and as fast...unfit is not an excuse~
everyone gets a chance at things. they dont say sorry, u too big cant find something for u. its more of hmm... lets get a bigger one for you, cos u HAVE to try it out!!!
in sg, it would be like, sorry we cant help you.

but then again, they dont take rubbish for weakness. unless u really cant do it and theyve seen ur effort, they will push you and get the response they need. so not time for lack of confidence and seriously, the confidence overflow of people here in themselves just fills you and takes over~

i think im gonna like it here for awhile~ so long im still a student and enjoying campus life~