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Quote2: Meself

greatness is knowing that i'll be somewhere in your thoughts today
-SN Ang-

Snowy sleepless nights

Ive called myself polarpanda for ages now.
an organism that tries desperately to connect itself with snow and wintery weathers.

now that im finally in UK, and its darn cold. its snowing.
small snow showers, heavy big snowflakes blizzard, gentle falling of snow on the nose etc etc...
Ive even learnt that a hot cup of tea and a good book beside a window full of falling snow can be a really sinful act of relaxation, comparable to enjoying good chocolate and mocha on a lazy afternoon.

I cant sleep. Just like when i was back at home.
Bad habit.
Im trying to concentrate and attack my dissertation with as much power in can infuse it with.
I want to do well, like i always do, dream, tried too.
But the snow is just too much for this head.
its hypnotic watching the snow.
the cold always makes me shiver from the bottom of my spine up.
and forever, i would shiver and chatter like how they describe it in children's books.
today? its 3am going 4.
im in my room beside the already cooled radiator and the window which is standing brave against the cold knifing its way through to me.
Im typing away. verbal diarrhea.
drinking tea, hugging my fav pillow.
listening to Misty by Kenny G.

it all began with the itchy fingers and tired eyes diverting attention from dissertation onto msn.
and falling on the one love that DNA had stubbornly refused to remove its liking tagged to him.
so began the dramatic waltz of tease and taunt.
words flow, sentences form and the scroll bar began to shrink like a door opening to allow memories to flow out yet again.
ah... The Stylistics are singing Can't Give You Anything.
yes indeed... cant give me anything.
but mere satisfaction to the eager desperado clinging onto whatever imaginary romance it can squeeze from these words which are words of play from two bored strangers trying for some fun.

and so its time again for Goodbye Days - YUI.

自私 by Cherry Tsui

自私 by Cherry Tsui

Friday, 25 December 2009 at 19:25

自私
令一些人想得太簡單太完美
覺得全世界都會成就他想要的
認為人人會為他
但自己卻丁點兒都不會為一下別人

自私
令一些人都覺得自己很完美
有問題的是身邊的人
全世界都不正常
全世界都應該跟自己的做法去做

人類都是自私的
人類天生就是自私

改不了

因此別說人自私

因為
你都很自私

confidence growth

maybe its the culture and attitude difference, maybe its just me in a new environment.

somehow, I feel that I am a more confident person now.
confidence in terms of personality. not the fake fronts which I always put up when faced with a presentation, confrontation or even for performances.

I always have this thing about how I look and my figure.
like DUR! I am like flabby and seriously not a looker totally~ and its somewhat funny that in sg, people like me arent granted the right to dress up and try to be pretty. u would just get so much eye rolling and coaxing to dress down and get back into the background!
but over here, irregardless of how u are shaped or looks like, it is ok to dress up in whatever u feel like and wants to.
in fact they dont see why u cant dress up at all!

vainity aside, theres the confidence as a person.
over here i am asked to SPEAK UP! they say i speak too softly cos i lack the confidence in myself and that i am capable and just as good as anyone else here.
seriously, i realise that a long time ago, but people just ignore me even if i start to shout in sg.
here, they actually ask u to have your say. its like when u try to get into a conversation, and u cant really get into it, they would come back and ask you what was it u wanted to say and they dont take 'nothing' as an excuse to skip.

even in choir, honey drums, canoe, scuba, H2O polo etc.... I am not singled out cos if how i look. in fact, they treat me like everyone else. no exceptions. U have to swim as hard and as fast...unfit is not an excuse~
everyone gets a chance at things. they dont say sorry, u too big cant find something for u. its more of hmm... lets get a bigger one for you, cos u HAVE to try it out!!!
in sg, it would be like, sorry we cant help you.

but then again, they dont take rubbish for weakness. unless u really cant do it and theyve seen ur effort, they will push you and get the response they need. so not time for lack of confidence and seriously, the confidence overflow of people here in themselves just fills you and takes over~

i think im gonna like it here for awhile~ so long im still a student and enjoying campus life~

Final Lap to Graduation

Dear Family and Friends....

I always find it difficult to put things in words and I always worry too much with what they would bring...
Its was even harder for me when I first decided to leave Singapore to do my final year and graduate in UK.

First of all, it was the money involved. It wasnt a small sum and trust me, I am not someone who likes to have attention such as money to myself~

and then it felt really selfish knowing that my family felt real uneasy with all that preparation and stuff going on but still having to put them through it all just so things can move on.

and finally when its almost time to leave, I realise that my friends can be affected too~
well.... i didnt expect myself to feel so attached too. and the farewells are really touching.
its the same reason I dont really like to celebrate my birthday cos it feels too over for people to come out and do stuffs for me. ha...

I have to APOLOGISE to my friends. Most of them anyway... :(
I announced my departure too late and I simply cannot find time for everyone. Cos i know my family needed me the most and I want to be there for them.
And im sorry to alot of you who have to know that Im already in UK from fb or this blog....
T.T sorry.....


Well school's fine so far, except for the fact that I had to survive sunday, monday and tuesday without my baggages.... they were delayed la... sianded....
and its my first time in a damn cold place!!! luckily i had some warm clothing with me on the plane...

the people were nice to me knowing my plight so in a way it was a blessing~
it was really crazy when it came to the choosing modules, meeting my new classmates and well getting to know Bradford and direction and all~
Im still getting used to the cold and well~ consolation's that i finally know how it feels to get blown off ur feet! lol!! yesh the gale here IS that strong!

unfortunately complains of course I have.
maybe this place is really huge~ I had a difficult time contacting the people at the airlines and anywhere else for my baggage matters, I finally received a reply last thursday i believe...
now still waiting for second reply.....

the hostel was ok~ actually i like it cos its centralise and really close to almost everything!
however.... the laundry area still setting up!!! that means more hand washing for me.... aww man!!!!
my room has sucky view as compared to my flatmates from the other side which is absolutely fabulous, i have to pass through 4 doors technically to get to the kitchen or bathroom...and i have to swipe cards just to get there and guess what? they dont have to cos its at their area!!! AND best of all I have to cross a common corridor carrying all my barang barang to the toliet everytime i shower.... sian..... inconvenient la!!! and my area is where the UBar is... its got no privacy and noisy, well sometimes, and well the carpark's there so i guess it can be smelly sometimes from the smoking and fumes. so i keep my windows closed lo....

i want to change room but that empty room is right beside the toliet and probable has restricted view cos its sunk between 2 walls as from my research.... aw shyt la!!!

my only consolation is that this room is located where the sun and moon can shine.. everyone say its great cos where theres sun its cosy in this weather. i guess so... ive set myself up in this room so i guess I could deal with this lo... otherwise i'll ask for a change late next year just for the fun of it la...? lol

and the hostel has got crazy people who like to set off the fire alarm.
its a regulation we clear the room or else kenna fined or even kicked out lo...
its a wonder y they havent catch anyone yet cos its the 5th time in 2 weeks...!
and last night as horrible la... it was so damn cold my knees are knocking at each other, I was shivering like hyopthermic patient and I cannot talk for nuts cos i wa shaking so much.
By the time I got back to the room, I cant fall asleep and my limbs were so numb from the wind and cold of the night....

ok

i gotta leave this for now...
will update soon!! promise!

old times

it all started with 1 picture from primary6 at camp christine.


and people ive missed for the past 12 years came flooding in to comment in facebook.
my goodness~!!! some of them have changed so much I would NOT recognise them on the streets!
and we are as bad ass as we were 13 years ago~ good thing ehh?!

and so as i was packing up my area this morning, i found my file of all the pictures from ZHSS and NYJC. (hmm.... i wonder where the pics for chongfu has gone.....)
and well, i couldnt resist adding them to the collection.
I was laughing so hard looking through those pictures seeing how much we've all changed in such a short time!
aiya.....i was MUCH thinner.... damn.....

i remember the first time i took a leading position, the natural high on stage with guzheng troupe.
PB in ZHSS that offered me a chance to really crawl outta my shell and really work my arse off, the days in school decorating the building and stuffs, duties, sports day, canteen and bookshop, PB room, detention committee ha...., caligraphy class, etc etc etc.....

NYJC that had its highs and very lows.....
OCIP in Thailand(changmai) and LTCs

i miss those days...

Night Festival 2009: The Loop of Fortune

Night Festival 2009: The Loop of Fortune

By Action Theatre PAN.OPTIKUM (Germany)
Venue: Singapore Management University Campus Green, National Museum of Singapore Stamford Green and Stamford Road
Date: FRI 10 JUL 2009 - SAT 11 JUL 2009 10:30pm – 11:00pm

Making its premiere in Singapore, The Loop of Fortune weaves the audience and the surrounding architecture into the plot of the performance, and uses associative images to tell the story of a man’s happiness and destiny.
Starting from Singapore Management University’s Campus Green, the performance shifts across the street to a large-scale finale in front of the National Museum of Singapore. The Loop of Fortune unfolds through acrobatics, acting, live vocals and seamlessly interwoven firework displays. The audience accompanies the protagonist through various stages of his life, different emotional states – the joyful and naïve feelings of happiness alternate with overconfidence and fear – and finally, the dawn of the awareness that it is neither necessary nor possible to oppose one’s destiny.

(from National Museum of Singapore website)

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It was suppose to be a gathering in honour of my birthday.

Steamboat and fireworks after that.

As with this group of peeps... I always felt left out.

why?

because opinions are usually not sought from me but the girls of the same age.

I am 1 year older....

and if u ask me why i kept my silent?

I've known them for what? 10 years? and my opinions are always NOT important.

so why waste ur breath.

yes i've been disappointed many times.

thats why i say dont organise or plan a celebration of my birthday.

thats why i would rather spend it somewhere else like AYG this year.

true enough. its still the boyfriends and girly stuffs that get in the way.

Damn it. I knew its coming already but I choose to believe yet again.

and Damn it again, Im correct.

Now that its too late to return to the museum again... im am disappointed.

VERY disappointed... with myself too.... I should have made my stand and stood there to watch ALONE. at least ill return happy.

I an proud to say im an arty farty person.

I love opera, orchestra performances and above all, abstract art or modern expression such as the above... I should have listened to my heart....

after 24 years of training myself to keep mum and go with the flow.... its hard to break habit.

and because i love this group of peeps too much, i am hurt even more with the simple fact that they have forgotten that the gathering today is for me. they should have asked for my opinion.....

even after I hinted to the cat, it remained oblivious to them that I wanted to stay... and they had obviously forgotten that today's fireworks were suppose to be for me.....

:-(

School Holiday

June Holidays.

No Swimming lesson. No income.
Biangs... Life is hard without a stable income already.
okay, although I felt its the right time to siam right before H1N1 hits shores ha....
evil hor?

anyways...
I'm technically jobless.
I should be very free, very poor, very happy.

BUT

I am very busy, very very poor and okay~ happy still.
It was the Zoo, then the Science Centre and a lot more places which i should visit to get some overdue businesses taken care off.
And my darlin guitar still needs some taking care off.
although its cheap and a hand-me-down but still i love it.
Im already low on cash and really i can understand how those people feel when they are outta job and really low on funds..

I have no life what so ever....
although what does it really mean to say 'I Got Life'?
really ???

anyways... there are some things like I realy should lose some weight that i think i could take care off... although im the typical lazy women, thats y im ugly and fat harhar!!!

top agenda to take care of.
clean the kitchen, finish the ceiling's painting, clear my wardrobe, my room, etc etc etc.....
okay, these should take care of my weight too~ ha....

Will You End Up WIth Your Crush?

Yes! Your Crush!

You probably thought you two would end up together from the start, didn't you? Well usually you don't end up with your crush. But your one of the very few people who do. Congratulations, you two were destinied to be together.

~~~~~

Haiz... ya right... only in my dreams? maybe~ ha!

First Confirmed H1N1 in Singapore

For details of the 1st case in Singapore
MOH Singapore

ALAMAK!!! WHY?????
bohbian la~ to push ecomony ppl must work hard mah~
these ppl i dont blame lor~ they have no choice la~ ahboh what?
jiah ga gi ar? (eat themselves ar?)

BUT
there are those that i MUST CONDEMN!!!
Parents ar?? U realli need to go gai gai overseas THIS much meh??
not scared u come back kenna H1N1 ar?

U kenna there your problem la~
touch wood kid die u die boohoo den? blame urself lor... who ask u go gai gai now.
is it really necessary leh? dont go can die isit?
if u kenna, please dont come back until u are well la..
i scared ar~ coward if u want to call me that.

but too bad for me.
i have to go out jalan jalan frequently cos i need to earn money.
and i have to travel all over too. only all over Singapore nia.
like SARs time, wah~ wash until hand peel ar~
i kenna nevermind. but i dont bring it HOME!

tsk tsk....

just for fun after all the grim stuffs~
something from MrBrownShow.com

oops... (My tee-debut!)

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bad toe week

its has been tough adapting to life as a wasted being.
theres absolutely nothing i could or feel like doing. couch potato even seemed really frustrating sometimes.

my worse fear.
good for nothing.
and my senses dull already!
biangs!

can u imagine...
i hurt my fourth toe on the left foot last monday and it started to bleed from under.
and yesterday, i hurt the fourth toe on the right foot and it cracked from the middle sideways and bled.
biangs eh! both pain like siao and the accident happened at HOME.
of all places, i shouldnt be so blur especially at home lor~!!











pain pain pain. even while sleeping, the blanket pressing on the toe would hurt lar~ how to sleep well... sians....
im evolving into a true blue 宅女.

Beautifully Imperfect

A Yasmin Ahmad film, from thinkfamily.sg
i saw this on TVmobile the day I shut the door to the clinic for the last time, i was touched.
It reminded me how imperfections irritating at first became part of our lives, and how we grew to take them for granted. That was when i cant wait to get home for dinner. To try and meet my dad at the lifts and the hear the squeal of my sister, the drone of my brother's video game while my mom sizzles the last dish in the kitchen.

I realise, then, i miss my job...

H1N1 aka SWINE Flu

Being the ahNGee thats been interested in these mandane stuffs....
its time that i recover that me thats interested and kaypo in these stuffs~ lol...

i got a confession to make first of all...
i DONT read newspapers nor watch the news...
so... ha..... i always am the last to know~
STUPIDITY right....?

anyways~ my ma was asking me about the H1N1 virus this morning.
including if we could eat pork at all if theres a chance that the pigs may be infected for all we know.

being the smart ass me, i ask her if she made a mistake with H5N1? H1N1 doesnt ring a bell!
ha~ i was so wrong lo~ when she said PIG i realise somethings wrong.
chinese paper. wah~ its been a long while since i read chinese papers. this time i devoured it greedily.

okay i concluded that:
1. It should be okay to eat COOKed pork since heat should do the job, and besides, whats the acid in our tummy for right?
(i was right~! However, it is essential to cook meat properly. A temperature of 70C (158F) would be sure to kill the virus. )

2. H1N1, sounds like an ancient strain...
(i was right again!! HA! it went back to 1918~ ancient right?!)

3. Symptoms.... probably like flu lor~ and shyt... im sneezing away NOW. uhoh...
(H1N1 is the same strain which causes seasonal outbreaks of flu in humans on a regular basis. Symptom of swine flu in humans appear to be similar to those produced by standard, seasonal flu. )

and what made me pretend to be this smart ass now?
the news on TV lah~ the magic box that got us glued all day on the couch rocketing the sales of chips and everything unhealthy.
mexico. phrase 4. temerature checks at the airports....

walau!!! phrase 4.... sustained human to human trasmission...
xiao liao lah...... scary like hell lor~ felt like SARs period again..
man am I glad I finally quit NOW! whew....

okay~ so this H1N1 aka SWINE FLU is like cousins to the H5N1 aka AVIAN FLU.
so these cousins probably share the same surname but are different family lo~
LOL~ synical expression...

so we've got an extension on the H5N1, H5N2 which is known to have infected people.
and H1N1 seemed jealous, jealous enough to want to catch up: The World Health Organization has confirmed that at least some of the cases are a never-before-seen version of the H1N1 strain of influenza type A, it contains genetic material that is typically found in strains of the virus that affect humans, birds and swine.

like all viruses, Flu viruses have the ability to swap genetic components with each other, thats means the new and improved version of H1N1 is a rojak of different versions of the virus.
Rojak in viral terms is bad bad news for us. in more common terms is mutation ar~!
mutation leh~ means new version, stronger, meaner and more deadly usually, unless its stupid or something (usually the failed versions "die out" la~ darwin's law muahahahah......)

so all my darlings out there, please load yourselves with vit C with workouts or something hor~ no more happy hours and late nights if u could help it alright?! build up ur immunity first! its always better to be on the defense than offense lah~ same in medical terms trust me~

BBC Swine Flu Watch
BBC News graphical Representation of the Avian Flu(H5N1)
CDC(US)
CDC Fluview
WHO phase of pandemic alert

asking for love

how do you ask for love when you dont love in the first place?

sometimes i just dont understand how MCPs work down beneath... you've got what you want. its time to let go. dont expect me to change my perspective and kneel to the absolute disgrace of womenkind because i will absolutely not.



sometimes its easy to forget that people are ultimately human.
flesh and blood with lots of pain and well emotions too...
i've forgotten that the old man is human afterall beyond the fascade of ?polygamy
okay maybe its wife plus mistress.
and lets put the damn excitement of fooling around while tearing your loved ones apart aside. u are human too..

okay so i am sorry that overlooked the fact that you needed love and affection too.
but you pushed us away first! u let the woman loose into our lives and mashed us up so terribly that everytime she drifted past, the wounds tear apart and starts bleeding again.

its been 5 years since my dear granny passed away.
and truthfully, i didnt know the true meaning of 'its too late' until now.
there are so many things i wanted to learn from her. hugs that i would never have again. her perfume, her smile, her signature laughter... HA~ HA~ HA~
i wanted to learn how to cook from her, sit in her ride and go for a spin.
i can still remember how we affectionately tell people "my grandmother on skates".
her smile, her poise, her style and taste are definitely beyond all those 'tai tai' living around her. its like high class desperate housewives versus an artist! LOL

supper at amara hotel. ice-creams, noodles, rice, westerns etc etc etc... so long we are happy. money's not a problem.. yeah money is something that leaves most of ur worries behind. worries, problems, and the blahs that money can solve.

except this. THE WOMAN. ya, in 'french' its DA BITCH.
although im still ehh... relatively new in this world, ive met my share of bitches.
not the regular ones but the mean, horrible and really wholesome ones.
they give you hell for breakfast, crap for tea and lots of rubbish for dinner.
supper? nah~ i'll pass.

yup she gave me expired food since i was a child. no kidding!
maso lots of hampers for herself for god knows what reason since she always keeps them until they are dusty and pass their comsumption date where she'll then bring and WOW share with the gals in the office.
used to called her 手指票 cos everything she say good so long its from you. why? cos its blardee damn free and she can grab as much as she like cos u wont say a thing since she's the woman right? and i need my job!
and theres the 我不知 in cantonese she always use. she cant even send a fax for goodness sakes!so everything she dont know, we the OL complete for her lor...
the list goes on and on and on....
and her hall of fame: she food poisoned me on the first CNY eve dinner. WOW~

and now you want us to accept her?
hello~?! 尸骨未寒 heard of it?
well~ this old man brought her into the house even before she DIED!
needless to say this woman came to the house on the morning when my dear granny passed away. thinking of this still makes my blood boil.
she came hurried, conceal her joy behind lots of crocodile tears.
"im so sorry" she cried, her face dry as desert, her smile she cant hide.
MY GOD! my grandma's still lying on the bed, and the doc hasnt even arrived to pronounce her dead!!! legally, she's still DAMN BLARDEE ALIVE!!

and even before my grandmother's wake done and her body cremated? where's this old man? well resting in the house of this woman. i dont even want to guess what they did together.

my grandmother's body hasnt cooled, the ashes still warm, and this is what U the man of the house did. to your kids, your grandkids.
how blardee fuck do you expect us to respect u anymore?!

u need love. we tried but for hell trust us, we just cannt stand the sight of U and the woman in the same house. we gave u love BUT u pushed us away, trusting only the woman.
HOW FUCKING WELL can this woman take care of you when at the doctor, she's "i dont know, i dont know" to every stupid quesstion that we ask?! even the doctor cannot believe she lives with you!
she gives you soda and biscuits for lunch!! WAH~ fuck man! we give u this for lunch and we'l probably die cos u MCP cannot take not having HOT HOMECOOKED FOOD FOR ANY OF UR BLARDEE MEAL! what the HELL?!

and u expect us to ask u how's your health every damn day?! c'mon la~ if you are not well tell us! we cant be calling you every fucking day just to make sure u feel loved and cared for.

we are not that DAMN FREE to stroke your ego every now and then! we've got our lives and families you know?! u got that woman! leave us alone and go tour round de world la~!! u cant bring that FAT account of yours to hell when u die anyway. so why not treat us and urself to some goodness while u can?? hmm?

you should be glad that thoughts of taking you out for lunch did actually pass thought the minds of us grandkids... but the thought of having that glutton there and having to treat her just plain SUCKS! so its plan aborted everytime.
boh bian....

we used to feel guilty asking JimPo out for meals, having a great time with her. now we are free! cos we dont owe u a living now that the sluts responsible for you!

you know? there are days when naming her slut, bitch, and anything horried seemed appropriate, but we realise its an inslut to them if she were listed and branded with these words. even 'the thing' is an insult to the thing...

i just dont understand. 出的了厅堂进的了厨房。this woman fits NEITHER. she cant cook, and she disgraces us in public. have u had the time of explaining why your grandpa's girlfriend behaves like this and like that and eats like a glutton? or why is she dressed like this for a dinner? yu[ i have and had and probably will still get lots of these questions coming... sigh....



enough of my diarrhoea....
i wanted to say, i could show you more care and concern.
WHEN i see you, and when circumstances really call for the need to.
heck! im not that important in ur list anyway~

as for that woman, dont expect any less from us.
she's still not going to get less from us nor any better treatment or respect.
please la... having dinner on the same table as her is already the LIMIT!

who says i dont care about people? who says i dont care about their feelings?
now im worried how my cousin's gonna take it... she was really upset when she found out about this woman already.... and now to hear this....

WTF really!

My ahgong's girlfriend is now officially his wife.
what more can i say?

i think i need some time to sort myself out.
im so outraged!!! ARGH!!!!! FUCK


MEN are JERKS. BASTARDS!
if u dun even know how to love ur family U dun know LOVE?!

2nd April's FOOL

and i had to be the fool on 2nd April...
tsktsk....

i didnt want to leave but i know deep down its time to say my farewells....
im leaving my job this saturday... T.T
3 years there and countless moments of joy and despair...LOL!!!
although i felt glad that patients ask me to stay cos they love me too much... harhar!!!
but i have to get my degree no matter what...
thats why i had to leave to concentrate on school....
okay... excuses excuse right....? ahh wattever


and today~ i had to be a fool
Swallowed a HUGE mouth of sour goats milk...ya EWWWW X10000000

haydairies.com.sg

i dont know what made me do that at all?!
it was goat's milk from yesterday which i forgot to drink.
Left it standing at the pantry till this morning..

i MUST BE crazy!!!
i actually took it, open it and took a huge swig from it.
of course i threw the rest of it away
BUT
that 1 mouth has left me with a sore throat.... its like sand paper back there...
i regret....im sorry... :p

so kids, remember~ please PUI anything that tasted wrong instead of swallowing it okay~
LOL.... another milestone in the dumbest moments of my life

reading

harharhar!!
another exam period akan datang!
shyt la..... i must have lost the damn steam sia....
i dont have the mood to study, to do the essays nor the presentations liao leh....

biang ar.... how sia?!

all i have in mind is how to relac one corner
strum the guitar just to make some noise to fill the silent
keep listening over and over again to jason mraz's Lucky
and what else?? cook for the fun of it and torture my family to finish the dinner after that!
buahahah~
EVIL~~~~

anyways ive picked up an old habit: reading
again yes...
like the advertisement from adidas i think: something about you've cheated on it once or twice but running always takes you back..
its the same with reading lo....
and what more to start wiith a fav author: James Patterson
and ha~ "1st to DIE" from Women's Murder Club

i dont really remember what i read and who the authors are
so for he's name to come up at the library that day
just when i was toying with the idea of reading again~
what can i say? its a good one to start with... next one: second chance

跳！jump!