hazy lazy breathlessly

haiz....
i feel so lazy nowadays.... or was it dizziness...?
or
i will feel like im am suffocating really slowly in the haze that surrounds me...
*cough cough....

how...
i dont feel like doing anything, dont feel like going out because i dont feel up to it...
dont want to leave the house because i feel breathless even walking in the park...
damn... can someone exchange the whole breathing system with me?
im sick and tired of the puffer and breathless deal liao lar...

although i dont even really care if i die of asthma or something else... im not in the mood to pass on yet, at least not yet lar~

i love you all family or friends or enemies if you actually exist at all...
but then i want to die b4 everyone of you because i dont want to be sad and i dont want to be left behind alone and become a lonely ahNgee~
i am saying this because i have dreams. nightmares that you guys die and the emotions that i woke with sucked really. at least i dont feel so sucky if i die first...