or are you feeling guilty?

well what do i put into this episode of well hopefully explosive entry....
im not trying to humor anyone but definitely humor myself reading my poor english trying desperately to float and hopfully achieve something that my GP teacher would be proud to read. things like a reply to a friend: "damn i missed that session of openly discriminating at the very insensitive gender and well scold and kill as much as i can at them simce we are a all galz group! who needs guys anyway. you can rid of guys and well we can still clone ourselves and shock egg cells to life so that we get pregnant without the need of sperms! buahahah!! oops..."

anyway nothing, as usual, happened although i would liked to have something happen.
besides i realise that its easier to B**** about your friends and people all around you, regardless whoever they are.... and cross your fingers that i dont receive any court notice for slandering. im SERIOUS about keeping my link IC pink thank you.

so lets start with a potentially explosive, definitely entertaining for the clueless, stab in the back for the victim and so hard to slit my mouth to mouth those damned words.(although i think i'll forget what else to include after this.)
well it concerns that xj guy and well my friends who, well lets just drop any hints to who she is lar! anyway most of you out there dont know her as well. anyway...(just dont report me as slandering on the internet.....)

people say shes basically a fun person to be with once you know her. besides the occasional not very lady actions at the table, she dresses to kill any guy out there with the taste for womanly lady. dress and a BLOODY HIGH high heel to match and usually the makeup that well at least someone say is better than me. (speaking of which i dont have the habit of doing myself up cos there is really nothing to look at anyway.) but then there are a few who believes that she has more flaws that shadow her after years of accquaintance. lets just say that there are times that she can be rather petty and

this is the 2nd version(continues...) cos the com thinks that im too harsh...(lost my previous copy in cyberspace) maybe...so this is the softer and probably much less harsh...

well its all because of my MENTAL BARRIER that i didnt do anything drastic so far onto her. lets just say that i would rather not hurt or break anyone. PEACE man. but then there are times where DRASTIC measure have to be taken like in this case. lets just say that galA and rabbitB have some problems which i see as really simple stuffs. 1. B has a very bad temper and being a guy, this can spell EXTREME ugliness and horrible attitude.(although i believe that you HAVE an equally scary temper yourself) 2. A has problems knowing what is it that she wants in my view. somehow i think that she is in love with X. and so is X but somehow they are reluctant. (and if im B i would be rather angry and explosive too) I personally believe that all the WOOHA over this is a classic case of "push all the blame on you(B) and hope i(A) dont feel GUILTY!"... (you and your living without guilt) seriously why is it that its all his fault over this split?? im not trying to stand on anyone's side but really lets talk about being fair. he apoligised and well i thought that its nice of him to actually do that after thinking and cooling down. you CANT blame him for being jealous! and you, HAVE you thought that you are being not cold or resolute BUT insensitive. being his fav, you should know that it is normal and perfectly important that he gets jealous when you spend too much time with X! really how can that idea NOT cross you?? if i do the same thing you are on him wouldn't you react the SAME way although you know that its just friendship?? come on lar! think gal and dont try to shun from this! face it! its not totally his fault and neither is it yours! its just that hes really ANGRY and you dont realise that things have gone a little OVER the top. he's already spending LESS time with you cos of army and there another guy is spending MORE and more time with you! if you want to end this get it over and done with! dont drag and drag just because hes BEGging you to go back to him. dont be so complacent okay? he can choose to dump you if he wants to! (remember the times you kissed him just to let those girls drooling at him know that hes yours.) truthfully, WHY is it that you dont want X to know that its partially his fault? or are you feeling guilty cos you really did go past that line WITH him? ( damn i forgot what is that i wanted to say...) are you trying to protect something? the thing is you guys are letting this drag too long and it seems that you are stuck in a limbo where you just dont know what to do. B or X? make a choice gal! if B is as bad as what you've told me, just forget him and start over with someone else! you've got so many people behind you scared what?!(theres always X who would do anything for you)
ALL ASIDE, im a little piss. of what? of small stuffs like you guys happily ASSUMING that im not free so that you can go to the festival TOGETHER. walau! okay lar im NOT that fluent in jap as compared to you but im the one who introduced you leh! and now you LEAVE me out of these fun you have?! and share with him?!? if there really is nothing then why that fear?!?!?!?! cosplay leh? ASSUME i read papers and will definitely NOTICE that ad! wa biang! i was the reluctant one! i wanted to go in casual clothes and you said NO! and he went with you in casual wear?! and i found about that AFTER the whole thing! waste my money to buy stuffs and i have to make them myself! and this is what i get! wa biang! WHY didnt you just ask him in the first place?! since you guys are the one who's INTO this thing and im not! now i finally know what is going on in my brain when i did that "BLARDEE HELL" entry... chey! dont assume lar! i would rather know that im missing something BIGger than class outing BEFORE i actually missed it! it SUCKED to know that you are LEFT OUT of something like this and someone else is there with you other than me! damn X if i can! hate! hatE! haTE! hATE! HATE! IDIOT! im going to become B number 2 after this entry man!!!!!!! and there the 2 of you are enjoying life! haiz.... ZZzzz....

watever... i never expect anything to do with love to be rational and politically correct anyway.and dont call me thinking that im hurt over X! please! if you want to get hitched just do it! why do i care if its you or someone else?! anyway whatever you do just leave friendship outta the picture okay.sometimes i wonder, yes i did, if you are the one who's interested in him while you curse under your breath trying to tell me that there's chance when there is evidently none! but thats ncie of you even if its not the case...
take this in a light mood okay~ im not trying to like scold or lecture you cos seriously im not up to that standard to do that to you. optimistic. hopefully this crap can help you make decisions faster and hopefully everything will be okay after all this!

CRAP.