i never learn that im to be appreciated

i am a fool man!
a damn freakin impossible fool!

why do i still freakin care for anyone like her?! this is freakin confusing and it makes my blood boil to see that people live life if not normal but happier.
lol no lar~ joking one
i mean it makes me feel left out again. that feeling that i get everytime things like that happen.
yea i said time will make it disappear, but then time moving a lil slow in this aspect huh?
Oi time arh, work more efficiently can ornot?! bakka~

just let me retain that grade or position in her life and not even lower cos im already down there after she officially tell me that im junk to her 3 months ago... or was it even earlier??
aiyah! dont care lar ahNgee~

as what everyone out theres saying,why you still care?. hmm... i dont know, maybe im just a freak that likes to be treated like junk by people like her and yet still care like a old granny who never learn that shes not appreciated.
DAMN it man! am i just stupid or what?
aiyah~

dont read this lar~