thoughts when you are tired

sometimes i think of stuffs like...
if you make new friends, does that means that your old friends go down the drain....
apparently not so, okay maybe a couple...
maybe they are caught at a rather interesting window and you moved on without noticing

its hard enough being a relatively happy and responsible human being everyday
and the growing population of friends make it even more interesting when you fill up the schedule everyday
ive been reading alot of blogs recently and well its kinda interesting to see how everyone's going on and what are their thoughts at the moment
interesting entries made me felt bad losing out on their lives...

plagarism case which i thought was plain to see
a one month trip overseas for schooling purposes
birthday dedications
campus star and complains
work vs enjoyment
death of relatives
career fair
WTF entries

i feel kinda bad but i only have 24 hours a day
im not feeling well at the moment and im sorry that im the kinda person who 记仇 and well i dont forget so easily one...
im not aiming at anyone if you feel that i am...
its just that sometimes i get pissed off very easily and i dont know why...
sometimes its just that something that came into my mind
sometimes its just me
its hard for me to open up to anyone and well although i talk alot, its crap
nothing deep in me heart nothing solid.
its always until someone opens up to me and when i feel like hugging that someone and cry together with her that i open up...

but once hurt twice shy always apply for me...
i never at till now its been true that i dont give second chance...
sorry but i dont believe in second chances when it comes to matters at heart
emotional, sensitive and rather delicate issues
although i always say i dont mind, i find myself disappearing into the shadows sometimes...

unwillingly