fish lice attack! I HATE CRABS..

have you ever felt the guilt when you realise you havent been paying attention to anything at all dispite you effort and time spent on everything but yourself?
i've been missing my sleep so much that im sleeping in the bus standing up everyday.

and yet today when i had the rare chance of returning home early, i decided to do some shopping for my family.
a 3 new goldfishes that cost me a huge hole in the pocket, otar especially for my dad, drinks for myself and my family who's been experiencing that increase 'fire' in the body due to various factor. me stress, not enough sleep, not enough water.... blah blah.....

and when im happy with myself, my slippers broke and there goes my only slipper for gai gai..... haiz....
after dinner, i found fish lice on the goldfishes and started the @#@%$!@$^%">%!@$^% process of removing the lice by hand and squashing them dead after which the poor fishes had to be quarantined..... im so upset.... stupid ectoparasite!!!
Arthropoda Crustacea Maxillopoda Branchiura Arguloida Argulidae Argulus japonicus
these lice have a worldwide distribution. STUPID CRABS!

and my memory was in such a bad shape, you've never seen me so unfocus before... i cant even follow a conversation properely. i can stand and sleep and "TIMBER!!!" almost fall....
how?! i need help.... desperately